User:Akashimemory/sandbox

what is the difference between the user talk page and the sandbox for the user and what does it involve those whoa are considered independent and solo as an individual with special access and availability. I observe, and meditate and bring it to the attention yet somehow think it's not connected to those of whom I share it with. Perhaps it has something that is believed to not be reached. I guess i notice that in my talk page it wants to be in content rather then this space and time (here) that is freely provided for.

Its familiar that in order to talk to somebody that we listen with the sense of hearing and the sense of sight when in a conversation. but what about typing on a keyboard and seeing and reading the words that display across the screen? how can i be sure as the typer that i can trust the keys to tell the screen for my eyes to believe? maybe if these sandboxes and type pages were in accordance to others then we could discuss it

why do i trust my memory of who i know of who i am to who others believed that i was when ever i follow the concept of life or death. i know what happened yet here i am, thinking i'm an other, writing it out trying to tell the public from another point of view yet i automatically go back to what was learned or the location. like purging this on the computer and believing its being read online is helping me in any matter other than my concept of remembrance of a "different" person that i claimed. i still can't distinguish this even though i'm aware, conscious and knowing [THAT'S THE PROBLEM]

Earlier I noticed when I was dozing off to sleep in a unusual position in a business place, that my body would twitch from left to right and I wouldn't see much of a visual but I assumed I would hear it from a considered memory. And at some point I did notice a flash of white light in a few flickers before seeing an image of what could be the mirror image of who i'm used to seeing as my self. With all this attention I had to silently remind myself that it somehow I had to not listen or pay attention to it if I were to going to see if my brain would "beat" a machine concept from a human. I guess sight and vision is still dominant with credit. maybe be above, research.

in my talk page, i tried to express my thoughts about memory and a type of control or if its [in]voluntary. yet here in the box, just before i arrived. I told myself to go back to my birth year and to see if i was still obsessed and then told the parental figures to do the same as we all were in the same room, from the frame of picture. the visual definitely kept its attention on an other's sate of sight but that was to be expected from an automated response in a relationship. it was capable for a few mores seconds but I couldn't hear myself from the fixed position.

just as i pondered when i use the computer and wonder about trusting the sense of talking to the internet. i now bring it back to my attention when i think my memory from watching somebody else on tv to when i am definitely not watching any screen and letting my imagination (some times) run wild as in not controlling whats being heard especially about any body who is famous, celebrity, influential, or a star. then usually i'll remind my self after i recognize some patterns what whats spoken or said that its probably just me shuffling through imaginary feelings yet contradictory i have to remind my self that "they are just humans, they are just a person" because in viewing and in observance that i notice about myself in either side [objective, subjective] that there's still a lot of judgement in any kind of related relationship of being a "friend" since i still notice and follow [others] when it is in terms of mirroring, or copies that my perception continues to play or flicker insight when "the mind considers it necessary" typically not by force.

and on that "letting it out" i recognize that i had to be patient with myself when touching own hands to my face whether my eyelids were open or closed. and what happened was that it was like my eyeballs were in a fixed rectangle of "knowing" what i appear myself as but really it was THEIR parts of their own hands that change in accordance to character to the "different" face which are not value or meaning. so i had to remind myself [them] that their face was split with a yellow mask and their left side of their brain and sense of hearing is yellow speech patterns while realizing that I had to not associate myself to them and that they are not close to my to measure the distance. guess we'll see.

hearing a voice speak your life? is there voices narrating your story. i tried this out with the few series and movies that had it, to remove it and something else happened in my own sense of memory in my present. but that clutching desire remained and eventually came back without being seen by my own version of who i am. it must have had something to do with me from the left crossing and walking to the right. in fact i'm quite certain what i'm typing right now on this wikipedia sandbox talk page is not even heard of in my own reality. even when i'm out of order in my heart [chest] and feelings, and hand in/out put.

what is even communicating when its being publicized yet when it blurs and blends together it seems like a frustration of politics. as in in my skills and memory i use an avenue of technology and only be around others who socialize the opposite of what i have posted. it could be cause somehow my mind is only then noticing the other half of the truth that is still a reflection of a mirror that their figurative eye believes. starts and ends at bored.

today i want to require the attention of animal behavior as a human being. earlier, i as a human posed as a sitting wolf just to see and feel my body conform to its position and when and where my imagination would succeed for or travel to, as well as using a public toilet at a restroom in a public building [the library] and urinated as a dog would by lifting my right leg as i stood close to the toilet to be of value. yet since there were no other humans or animal species that i could see around when all of this happened, i would not know where this information or notion was placed. so yes, it was imagined, perceived and in action.

still in the idea of speech and language in itself while believing that a listener is till present in or out of the sense of time. however i do not know if reading words and sentences from a reference book is considered language or speech even if its in common with hearing while in a position. it could have a [some] thing to do with the aspect a person as human being involved with their own memory when its known that its missing. such as earlier when i wrote on a piece of paper of my handwriting about the trusted scientific notion of U in a different direction and how it associates itself with the (mind) [of] imagination of a real-life "I, you" connection and relations that always seem to be talked about or known as a fact that definitely is non-conscious of technical value. As a property of any of the following : intellectual, mind, emotions, sensations, feelings ; to the oppose of witnessing this action of typing it on the keyboard and scanning the words on the computer screen. As a part of the subject to object.

> > > I wonder when my physical eyes notice a part of my body when I look at it which sense of sight seems to take the image for a photographic memory and how the desire is pieced together for my own awareness since its obvious that within that time frame of the moment I do not sequence with sentences of what the eyes would silently speak or associate with word branches.

>> Using the internet as a platform and the hypertext (technical or) transfer protocol secure and with the provider management and protection services as well as the aspect of what is conscious itself instead of being or knowledge. It would simply appear that one could log into a computer, the provider would know the websites that were visited but i'm unintelligible of the programming of incognito browsing that is used for the user and person who posts any kind of information on the site. [There could be a different reader from previous statement]

Mostly it would seem that its because of the discomfort and soundless silence of the attention when brought to a truth collapsing (if they even call it that, i know researchers and the like do)

With a following of a conscious state or similar sentences, the perspective is still in an explanation of the full "sphere" when public or communication occurs under and for any license without recognizing which approach is taken or directed

In over-hearing a person say out loud about "adulthood" it occurred to my attention that if they looked like one and were speaking it to direct it at someone, then were they really in that word itself. Then other thoughts trailed along that usually involved falsehood and truth that I know I had thought about before. To the sequence itself of what is considered a "rational" being.

In the absence and presence of a person that is required to be in a certain state of intensity; such as being in physical body movement yet that attention is still acquired onto what is referred as a recognition [or memory] of a fixed feeling in order to associate within the facility and those who are in mechanical of the process of faculty charges. yet in a plain and simple manner of form, it its subtle and sensed as just a "normal" view of casual talk of "so-and-so" as a "doer" of "such-and-such". As in the previous sentences regarded in the air quotes put a person within an observer's point of view.