User:Arnestopalao/sandbox

“TESTIMONY”

I grew up with a family na walang sariling tirahan pero puno ng love at masasabi kong nabiyayaan ako ng Diyos. Ilang beses kaming lumipat from Nueva Ecija to Palawan, Palawan to Nueva Ecija. Until such time na masasabi kong nagbago ng direksyon ng buhay ko at pamilya ko. We came to know Christ and started a life serving Him. The Lord blessed us with everything I would want to have as a high school student. I could get what I wanted. Nagkaroon kami sa wakas ng sariling bahay,mataas na grades sa klase and matiwasay na pamumuhay. I also started ang mamuhay ng tunay na takbo ng buhay ng isang tao. I realised na sa buhay, we have to face hurdles of life whereas actually, you will not experience problems ng minsanan lang but sunudsunod. We started losing everything na inipon namin, bahay at mga gamit to the point that, clothing at utang nalang ang daladala namin. Bumagsak ang negosyo ng pamilya, niloko kami ng mga tao nila papa at nagkasakit ang inay ko. I had to transfer from a private school and nashake ang family ko ng matinding problema. Balik upa nanaman sa matitirhan. We moved again to Nueva Ecija to seek support from a family but, we still hadn’t enough para maibalik nawala samin kaya nagdesisyon kami bumalik ng palawan to start dreaming again. I devoted mylife to God and started doing ministries for God. But it seems like I was in a single road, and the only choice is to move forward and hope otherwise mababaliw na kami sa buhay namin at sumuko na. I got the opportunity to be a scholar and it helped me to get my diploma and start to work for my family. I fell in love with Jesus as if I’m falling in love with a human. I also proved it sa sarili ko that, Jesus would make us realize and understand that once you accepted Him truly in your heart, certainly He’ll let you experience life where Jesus is the only friend na matatkbuhan mo. Totoo!. I served with the children ministry and held bible studies with different big schools in Palawan. And the time came when, I noticed that I gain nothing out of my service to God dahil sa laki ng nawala and I expected na mrerestore niya ang buhay namin noon, then I started questioning God. So I decided lumabas naman ng palawan. Ngunit isang buwan palang from Iloilo, something na may conviction within me na nagpabalik sakin sa palawan. I served God again, but 2nd time, I decided na parang gusto kong maging Malaya sa “calling ko”, so with my family pumunta kami ng maynila. But again, in two weeks time. I decided on my own, bumalik ako ng palawan. Then I gave my self a time to think and commit again to serving the Lord na baka Maayos na but in the third time, I ran again away from “my calling” So I decided to fly and work in Manila. I felt freedom with the affairs of the world and some vices I couldn’t think I could do. Isang taon din yun, isang taon ako naging free. Hanggang isang linggo, one week ng dreams and night terrors every night yun consecutive, I dreamed of my niece would die atsaka showing thru my dreams din that the church is calling me back. As I decided to be back and on the same day I was at the mall to buy for my plane ticket, my niece DIED (July 29,2018)Suddenly my unbelief and rebellious heart to God ay parang nawala. That instead of blaming God, I started blaming myself and receiving messages from God. Bakit pa ko umalis??. 😢 Sin is payable without God. Na habang ineenjoy ko ang freedom sa manila, IT SEEMS I was paying with my niece’s life (yung kaisaisang pamangking kasama nila mama at nagpapsaya sa buong maliit naming pamilya)and salvation of my own family for my sins of running away from the calling. Right now, I believe in God, still with WHYS. But all I know right now is He’s true. I am still in the process and couldn’t still say anything about ME few years from now To be continued...