User:Augusto Carmona/sandbox

I would like to tell about how Jesus called me, and when did Jesus call me, and where these entirely taken place. I know that Jesus will not call me directly in physical or I hear the sound of Jesus from heaven but I can see from my background, what was happened in my past life, from when I was childhood grew up to teenager and until now. For me God’s calling is mysterious, I don’t know exactly but I can see in reality event in my life. Sometimes problem may lead you to treasure, I say like this because it happens to me over and over, in this case I discover that not only good things that lead me to treasures perhaps it will lead me astray too. I have to face in reality event no matter how hard it is, but I’m sure that the completion of this event I might be achieved my destination. When I was in middle school, I have desired to become diocesan priest so in the last year in the middle school my parish priest went to my school and announced to those who wants to continue their high school in seminary so I wrote my name in the list too. At that time I was very happy during a week the Head master of the school gave us leisure to prepare our documents. Finally I completed all my documents and I submitted to parish priest, at that time we were seven students that applied to continue in seminary afterwards parish priest said that among you only two passed and he mentioned the names of those who didn’t pass so I was included and he said to me you didn’t pass because of you age there is only need 15 years old downward, I was very disappointed. However he said; don’t be disappointed with this case, there are many ways to become priest nevertheless you could be religious priest. How did I meet with father Xavier Nieto? One day tow Novitiate from Dominican Sister of St. Catharine of Siena they went to church to ask host from me, so I gave them the host and they took a time to share their experience with me, they told me about their life in the convent and what is missionary life and so on. I was very interested and they said to me now we have Dominican Brothers just arrived in Dili to establish their Mission in East Timor, then they said now they are looking for candidate to enter in their order so I gave my name immediately to them and they gave to Father Xavier and they said you just wait for the answer. Next morning after the mass Sister said to me that Father Xavier wants to talk with you on Sunday after the mass. The day that I met Father Xavier I still record, which was on Sunday 24 of March 2013 on Palm Sunday. After the celebrating the mass I invited one of my friend his name is Simon now he is Aspirant in our Order so we came to meet Father Xavier in Sister Convent and we talked with him and he lent two books about St. Dominic life to each one of us and he said every Sunday we should go to the Sister convent to receive the formation from the Sisters and the last week of the month we will have formation from Fr. Santiago.

Every week we go to the Sister convent to receive formation from the sister after that they invited us to meditate, recite the Rosary and vespers with them, I was very happy I felt something that really interesting in meditation time, sister just light the candle and open the meditation Hymn its really arouse my felling to converse with God. Sometimes I just seat on the ground and leaning towards the wall, it’s something that more convenient for me. My life was began to change from noise to silence so I asked sister to allow me to join with them in meditation and evening prayer everyday instead of every Sunday so they were pleased and welcome me, so it becomes my regular life. Thenceforward I joined with the sisters in prayers and helping them distribute the needs to the poor, I felt that I am already part of their society and most of the time they invited me to their recreation time, I learned many things from them. On January 2014 I came to Dili to live together with the Fathers, I felt not too difficult for me many things that I encounter in my first formation as an aspirant most of them I have already experienced in the parish and with the sister. I fell very happy living in the community even though I face with many challenges and difficulties, different idea among the brothers; but I think its natural things that happen in human life. No one is living in freedom in his entire life. This is the way for me to describe how Jesus called me, no doubt to go and without fear. When I was small my mother always telling me to pray before goes to sleep and I did it unwillingly. Sometimes I already lay down on the bed but she forced me to sit and just make the sign of the cross. My mother just doing like that over and over and later on I become costume I can’t sleep without pray. Now I thank my Mom because with her simple manner she had led me to be a good child and a good Christian. Now I enter in Dominican Order, to be a religious person I should try my best to live as the perfect model of the founder of the Order; St. Dominic and renounce everything that I possess in order to be a good servant of the church and live according to the Three Vows Of Evangelical Counsel in the community wherever I dwell.