User:Christianinks/Bipolar Disease

4.15.11 cgf              (USA proof) Living atop of the Gloaming Gloaming: Poetic Twilight or Dusk I originally began this opus on my last six weeks of hospital. Abruptly today, I thought I would compose more prose that aided me through my own Hell, and will (hopefully) prevent me from ever going back to such a sunset. I've been beaten and spurred, so misunderstood by family and an ally or two They couldn't interpret my malady and never thought I might be in their place as well; yet unshared with a psyche I no longer experienced I didn't request it, I so often-times wanted to yell, shriek, cry with a tangible desolation surmounting me I did my foremost, yet, it just wasn't enough and I watched my blood family unit bend and walk away for understandings and notions of their own, I implore for atonement from my God and beloved spirits, now so far away from me, yet, always in my heart Those who didn't merely slid and flew with angel wings when, in many ways, I required them to the highest degree My heart never varied, nor my soul, and I did noteworthy things that many would not have the strength or fortitude to do Connection lines all fell from people I adored and still do nowadays Learn to never waste a single instant and clutch on tight to the natural endowment of existence, conferred by a higher physical phenomenon. Don't waste a second, for that is as quickly as existence on this terrestrial planet can end I will forever remember to laugh too hard Make immediate reparations with those I love Give what I cannot change to my higher power and move ahead as the timepiece is ticking in my ear Those who remained I give thanks and hope they recollect the good and liberate the foregone Looking profoundly I can distinctly see my boons, talents, and genuine hearts conferred upon a tortured mind Fear is an emotion I've discharged and will never let onrush, for I'm not unaccompanied Existence is abrasive for each of us on this planet and is never easy, what is to come will forever be unmapped I've pushed and pulled all my life trying to gratify everyone No more I never really knew what to believe in this life I'd been granted Today, as yesterday, I am ascending from the gloaming down below my feet and hope you can do the same I finally see the light now and it is dazzling like the sunshine The light has made me understand I'm okay and so are each of you Oh, how it reflects upon us all In the end, I know that it is loving spirits that surround me gave me back the natural ability of living Come and share it with me and we can savour our hearts in passion and harmony taking one moment as it shoots into our hats, full and effervescent with heavenly bodies Starting from the beginning is a waste product and we plainly must begin this instant and time It is a part of my design and of yours You and I will be so much closer, prospering and flourishing off merely holding hands and forming a splinter-proof enchanting force Imagine Just imagine for one instant the physical phenomenon that would flow through every living soul We will each be so much powerful living hand in hand without a second of opinion Hand within hand bravery will grow in our hearts and souls The gloaming will be no more The gloaming will feel like a dream never really impinging our souls except in our psyches