User:Cornypooptm/sandbox

Man reading this reminds me of myself. We have a lot in common so I want to help you if I can.

Just so you know, I'm a 15 year old guy. Well first off, what activities do you do? It doesn't matter what you do, it's just important that you enjoy it. I remember one time I ended up in a club at school that I hated but sadly I had the club leader as one of my regular teachers so everyday he'd be like "are you gonna come to the club?". That made me so stressed out in school because I felt like I would have to keep coming up with ideas to get myself out of going to the club. Basically, if something causes you stress, just say "F*** it, I'm not doing this anymore". If you get really pissed off because you have to go to an activity that day, that's a clear sign that it's not right for you. The first thing I would advise is to get out of anything that only adds stress to the stress you have now. If your parents are forcing you to do these activities (which is a common issue) then talk it out with them. AND if there is an activity that you happen to be interested in, then don't be afraid to do it. You might say "Oh, I'm too lazy to get up and get started in that" or "My parents won't let me do it so there's no point in trying". But in that case, you might as well try because you've got nothing to lose. If you end up involved in something you love to do, that'll make each day better because you're looking forward to things instead of dreading their arrival.

I feel so much hate too, I know the feeling. Part of it is the music I listen to you. I listen to heavy metal all the time and even some of the more hateful artists like Marilyn Manson and Godsmack and that stuff. I don't know if you listen to that stuff but it definitely makes me think very negatively about society. I have the SAME EXACT opinion on women. I live in a place called Cherry Hill which is a super conformist place. So all the girls have the snotty b**** attitude. I'm considered ugly too because I have hair too long for a guy. All those b**** girls just avoid me based on that when they don't even know the kind of person I am. So I pretty much hate every girl I see. They aren't good for anything except cooking, cleaning and sucking my ****. But a negative attitude towards anyone(not just girls) can only be unhealthy. Think about this. If you wake up and walk outside, would you rather say to yourself, "Man, it's a beautiful day!" or "Man, I bet this day is going to suck!" If you think the day is going to be good, it'll be good. If you think it's going to be bad, it'll be bad. It's basically optimism VS pessimism. If you have negative feelings towards everyone, then they will only cause you to be upset. The more people you like, the happier it makes you. This is probably going to make me sound gay but you need to fill your mind with good thoughts instead of bad thoughts. That's basically all that depression comes down to: the way you perceive life. Every person attacks a problem differently. Some try to overcome it. Some give up. With depression, you get a sense of hopelessness, like you're doomed for all eternity. BUT THAT'S NOT REAL. IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD. If you think that life has no hope, then it will never have hope! That's why you need to believe that you can fix things, or that things can get better. It may seem easier said than done, but if you try to convince yourself enough that life can get better, then it will. I took a vacation to Africa 3 years ago. Those people live the ****iest lives imaginable. Still everyone there was so nice. I have a facebook friend in Nigeria who I talk to all the time and he's probably the friendliest guy I've ever talked to. Those people are so happy because they make the best out of their situation. I'm pretty sure you get what I'm saying by now. And you said you can't trust a girl for sexual stuff but didn't you say it was very hard for you to get one in the first place?

You said you wanted someone to lean on. Well I'll have no problem emailing you or chatting you on facebook or something if you think it'll help you, because it'll probably help me. When people laugh in your face, you shouldn't give a s*** because that's only proof that they weren't the type of people you would want help from in the first place. I know exactly how that feels. Most people would just pretend to care and then go talk s*** to all their friends that I'm some emo fag. And basically f*** all the people who think that you're just being "overdramatic". Depression is a serious issue, and it affects kids just like it affects adults. Yes, kids can typically blow things out of proportion, but most of us have a sense of reality, you know?

I definitely have those moments of happiness that only last for a short time too. Most of the time I think in my head that everything is going to be great from there on. But it turns out in a day or two, I'm back in my deep dark hole. When you're in those moments of happiness, sit down and think WHY you're so happy. If you can figure out what it is, then do that as much as you can.

Now I'm going to talk about suicide. I'm obviously not going to advise you to do that but I have the belief that if people want to kill themselves and aren't sure of a method, they might drive themselves to do crazy things that are either extremely painful or don't actually kill them. If you REALLY want to kill yourself, then you need the right method. If you want me to expand on that, then email me at cornypooptm@gmail.com(don't ask why that's my email). I know exactly how I'm going to kill myself and I think about doing it everyday, but there are three reasons why I know I can't do that. ONE: I never believed in heaven or hell because there was no real proof. I didn't think it was a bunch of "crazy talk", I just didn't think it was exactly like how the bible said it was. But let's say that the bible speaks the truth. People who commit suicide are technically commiting murder and all murderers must go to hell. Now is an eternity of burning in fire really worth it because you couldn't get through a relatively short time in your life? To be straight-up, going to hell would SUCK. TWO: my parents. I personally love my parents because they love me. I'm the most important thing to them and I know that because they try to show it every day. I don't know what you feel about your parents. If you hate alot, then I only assume that you hate your parents. But if you happen to have a good relationship with your parents, think about this. Say you hang yourself in your room. Your mom comes home and she says, "Son! I'm home!" When she gets no response she goes up to your room and discovers you dead before your eyes. That must be the must painful thing imaginable. I mean that. If you or I killed ourselves, we would just be despicable for putting our parents through that. If you happen to hate your parents, please don't let this convince you to kill yourself to get their attention. That's not a good idea at all. THREE: I said eariler that I love music. I am an extremely avid songwriter. My grades have been dropping lately because I spend all class writing songs in my head. People will be talking to them and I'll have no idea what they said because I'm either thinking up a guitar solo or writing lyrics or something like that. I really feel that these songs have potential and I've written over 80 of them. If I killed myself, all that time I spent writing those songs would've been wasted. Say in the future I grow up to become the biggest star in music. Now, I don't know if that's going to happen or not, but I don't want to throw away a chance at a great life all because of a bad life that I'm living now. You need to think of the potential you have. Think of all the things you can do in this world and think of all the things that won't happen if you die. These three reasons are strongly holding me back from killing myself even though I have the perfect method. I advise you to find the 3 biggest reasons why you shouldn't kill yourself. Get 3 reasons and just focus on them. If they are helping me, then hopefully they'll help you.

One tiny thing I want to throw in is this. DON'T KILL YOURSELF TO GET ATTENTION. If you do that, that'll make you seem like the melodramatic teen that adults think you are. No one will give a s*** if you die. That's not the insult, that's the honest truth. If all those people hate you, then letting them know that they drove you to a point of self-destruction will only bring them a sense of achievement. That's because they're f***ing disgusting. So just don't do that. And if you're going to write a suicide note, make sure you don't sound like a melodramatic teen because there's a lot of ways to do that if you write a bad note. You want all those ***holes who said that you were having "teen problems" to understand that you really were going through something. You should try to give them one last middle finger before you die, if you decide to kill yourself (which you shouldn't based on what I said before).

I know this is getting insanely long but the next thing I want to touch on is drugs. First off I'll talk about antidepressants. I'm on antidepressants and I can definitely say that those pills have an effect on me. I don't know if they're helping me or not, I just know that they're doing something. Are you on antidepressants? So now I'll get into the illegal drugs. I got into weed in March and I eventually ended up smoking pretty much every day. I loved it that much. The problem for me was that antipressants and weed scientifically don't mix. I can prove that because whenever there's THC in my system, I feel like absolute s***. When there's not, I don't feel so bad. To be straight up with you, drugs don't help depression. They just don't. Drugs can definitely be fun and exciting but when you hit that point where you find yourself relying on them to be happy, that's very bad. Alcohol and weed make me very happy in the moment but when I'm not high anymore, the only thing I want to do is get high again. You don't want to end up like that(I don't know if you do drugs or not). If you're going to do drugs, just stick with weed and alcohol, because everything else is just bad. I personally would take ANY drug because I obviously don't care if I die. But any drug other than weed and alcohol should not be tampered with. I have a few more things to say while on this topic. If you're on antipressants, don't take drugs. If you take drugs, don't take antidepressants. If you think you're going to start doing drugs, don't take antidepressants. You get the idea. Basically mixing the two is very bad.

So I guess my super long rant has come to an end. I have run out of things to say. I wish you well and I honestly mean it when I say that you can email me. Good luck. I really hope I helped.