User:Cshc skater/Kaitlin wolfington

Kaitlin Wolfington
Is hands down the perfect girl. Everything about her is beyond my comprehension, and i have yet to figure out what spectacular act i did to deserve such an amazing girl. There is no bad thing about her. At all. For one, her height is completely perfect, considering i'm able to hold her and look down into her eyes. It brings about a feeling thats unmatched by any other. She's GORGEOUS. She seems to think she is fat, but she is not at all, no matter what she thinks. She even tried to prove it to me on saturday night, November 20th, 2010. I love every line and curve her body has, seeing them, feeling them, and everything else in between.

Despite the fact that she is a sophmore in high school and i am a freshman in college, we are a perfect match. I am able to relate to her perfectly, and in any way that I am weak, she is strong. She supports me in anything and everything i do, she's DEFINITELY not like those girls that are all clingy and expect you to spend every waking moment with them. But i don't care about that, because i would strive to give her every moment i have on this earth. She deserves more than i am able to give her, but i will try my hardest and push further than i'm able to to please her and do anything and everything for her. She waited for me when i left... what more can be said? She never lost hope... something i have a hard time having period... However, her parents are quite strict, to the point of being just plain ridiculous, and that diminishes the chances of seeing her on a regular basis, and that is something that sets off some extremely melancholy feelings. But, i'm able to talk to her everyday via text messaging, and that is more than enough for me. Actually being able to see her is just.... indescribable. There is no feeling i can relate it to... i've never had the excitement and sheer bliss i have for her for any other.

All of my past girlfriends walked all over me and virtually ruined me. But specifically, my most recent ex, sabrina, ran my heart into the ground. She ripped my heart out, put it in a blender, and then fed it back to me... it was terrible. She messed me up really bad, we were together for 2 years roughly, and she decided to start talking to someone while we were together in the last like month and a half of our relationship. And the reason i'm even mentioning her name, is to show how awful she was and is. It will come back to bite her, and i most definitely will not be there for her. She messed that up beyond the point of even just... i don't even know. beyond the point of even acknowledging she exists would come close to it i guess... But anyways, this page is about kaitlin, and this section was to compare the feelings i have for her to the girl i despise.

-You make me tongue tied, leave me breathless, sweaty palms, my heart flutters at the thought of you, you leaves my stomach in knots, butterflies like none other, you give me a sweet peace of mind that i wish i had before, but nothing else could have given it to me. You make me wonder why i even tried to get back with her, it was worthless, and i should've known that. You are so much better than that, you genuinely like me, and i know this because of how we interact when we're physically together. Not to mention you make it known on the regular :). You are compassionate and i feel the emotion behind when you say i love you, this is new to me, because i always questioned what i had before. I never felt so sure, and so trusting of a girl.

I'll try to the best of my ability to give you whatever you need, i'm hoping that it's within me, and every second of my time because you deserve it. No one has ever told you how great you really are it seems, because when i attempt to, you just belittle yourself. It's as if people told you the opposite... and that makes me hurt... because you are the epitomy (sp) of the perfect girl. You don't get riled up about all the same junk other females do, you would do anything for anyone, and you surpass any bar set by any guy. Not to mention that your personality matches your looks: and i know you think you aren't pretty, but believe me, you are STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL. Otherwise, i dunno if i would post it on wikipedia for people to read. Because i don't lie to you, and wouldn't lie about you either.

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Wednesday, November 3rd, 2010

"Kait: Hey seth...

Seth: Yes kaitlin?

Kait: Ima fall in love with you, k?

Seth: Ok :) well if you do that thennnn im gonna fall for you

Kait: What if, hypothetically of course, i said... im already starting to fall for you...

Seth: Well then, hypothetically of course, i might say something along the lines of... Im beginning to let myself fall...

Kait: really ...?

Seth: Hypothetically of course :)

Kait: yeah ..of course :)"

When that conversation went down, i was at work, sitting on the couch facing the espresso bar, it was early morning, so work was kinda slow. The sun was shining so bright, and the day was perfect. I honestly felt like it was a movie conversation. Like we were in an indie film about love and two unique people who had both been hurt in past relationships, then they manage to meet through a mutual friend, but at the time, the boy has a girlfriend. The girl then falls head over heels for the boy, despite the fact that he has a girlfriend. Then, his relationship goes sour, and the boy and girl begin to talk. But of course like any good plot, there is a twist in the story, and the boy, based on some uncontrollable forces (parents) leaves the girl, and reconnects with his past girlfriend. That only lasts for so long, because his girlfriend cheats on him, and he realizes that he never should've let go of the amazing girl he had, even though her parents freaked out on him. He meets back up with the girl at her house one night with their mutual friend, and he apologizes, and she accepts. The relationship between them has become stiff, but it loosens up as they continue to talk. Then feelings develop, and they become boyfriend and girlfriend. There is a happy ever after, but it is imagined by the viewers as the credits roll, because the story is yet to be told, even though it is clearly determinable based on the ending, or i should say current, events.

I was away for a while 

But I'm hoping someday you'll forgive me 

Though I don't deserve it 

I'll cherish it well if you give me one of your new starts

Just one more last chance 

I swear that I'll earn it 

If you front me for now 

I'm good for it I swear 

I'm better now I swear 

In earlier days, they'd persecute people 

They'd carry them off, and hobble their legs 

For lesser offenses, than how I have harmed you

And still you allow me to walk free of pain 

Though I punish myself 

I will never settle 

The debts I've incurred for scorning the face

Of absolute beauty, and measureless grace 

And though I once mocked you 

I'm dying to pay for it now 

I'm dying to pay for it now 

So hand me the rocks to help weigh me down 

And tether my legs with a cord tightly bound 

To the end of an anchor thrown into the sound 

And test me to see if I will rise against the worst that it can get 

I wasn't well for a while 

I savored the things that I knew were sure to destroy me 

And that seemed to hold me 

That seemed to carry me where I couldn't go

On the strength of my own 

Well, I should've known

That gets me nowhere 

I've learned that now I swear 

In earlier days, they'd persecute people 

They'd carry them off, and hobble their legs 

For lesser offenses, than how I have harmed you

And still you allow me to walk free of pain 

Though I punish myself 

I will never settle 

The debts I've incurred for scorning the face

Of absolute beauty, and measureless grace 

And though I once mocked you 

I'm dying to pay for it now 

I'm dying to pay for it now, now, now 

So hand me the rocks to help weigh me down 

And tether my legs with a cord tightly bound 

To then end of an anchor thrown into the sound 

And test me to see if I will rise against the worst that it can get 

Well, I wasn't sure that I could 

Well, I wasn't sure that I could 

Well, I wasn't sure that I could

But, I can

Dashboard Confessional - The End of an Anchor

I hope this is making some sort of sense, it's basically my brain throwing up on the page, as the thought hits me i type it. I Love Her. See? thought in the middle of the sentence. It's kinda like that type of writing in like the 1800's where as your thoughts string together, write them on a page. It actually developed into a successful type/genre if writing. Wow, off topic. Like i said, brain puke.

She's texting me telling me to not post this, but i'm not gonna listen. And not because i don't care about her wants or feelings, but because i want to show and express my unconditional care and love for her. I'm hoping she's not too mad at me, because the last few messages consist of "HER: uh.... ?; ME: im typing hang on; HER: please tell me you mean just on my blog ..; ME: nope.; HER: please tell me you're not on wikipedia.; ME: i am.; HER: get off; ME: No; HER: why?; ME: because i don't want to. you'll see.; HER: -.-"

So please don't be too upset with me, I'm only pouring my heart out onto a webpage.

"Stumbling blocks will present themselves when the situation's bleak

All one can do, is hold and cling to the hand and arm of a loved one

I need you to hold on now girl with all you've got;

I'm gonna cast out all my line

I've waited too long now to let you go to waste

I'm praying that you feel the same

I need those smooth stones i carry around in my pocket

Without them i have no backbone

Don't give up, no matter what life seems to throw your way

I need you home 

Don't lose hope.."

THERE'LL BE MORE TO COME.

and please do not edit this page (other wikipedia users) i would greatly appreciate it. its personal, and i would give you the same respect.

REFERENCES/SOURCES:


 * 1) http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/The-End-Of-An-Anchor-lyrics-Dashboard-Confessional/2246C33046F3DC2C48256DE4002C0775