User:Emmabowie

im Emma iv just turned 21 and have resently just lost my fiance of 3 years. He died of a ashma attack in his sleep and i am trying to get through my darkest days which does not come easy! i have read 'Ugly' before and it touched my heart but now it is helping my through the most horrible time of my life. If Constance Briscoe can get through life after the horrible things she has experienced and come out a better and stronger person then i hopefully can do the same. i have read the book a few times and am reading it again when i came across a chapter that that gave me much to think about the chapter is chapter 5 Ugly and in this Constance asks her religious teacher about taking her own life, she states, "If God gave life, surely He would not mind if you gave it back to him? This is something that i have been asking myself each and everyday since my partner died, beacause i have tried to take my own life 8 times now so i can be with him but if i do succeed will God allow my to be with him or will i forever go on in pain?