User:K6ka/I feel like leaving...

Wikipedia just isn't fun anymore. I'm so sick of seeing and hearing about the drama and incivility and disruption that befouls WP:RFA, WP:ANI, and countless user talk pages. I don't wish to be associated with garbage like this. Things like     are just some of the things I've seen that really put me off contributing to this project. It's not so much that these things happen, but moreso that they seem to be coming from the same people over and over again. I got involved into Wikipedia because I wanted to fight vandalism, but after passing RFA I've had plenty of thoughts about just turning in my mop and leaving the project for good. It's not that I don't like fighting vandalism or contributing to Wikipedia, but I just don't want to edit on a project where these things run rampant. Two, three years ago I was still a happy high school student that found joy in using Huggle during a boring class or when I had nothing better to do. Now I'm a full-time university student trying to look for a job; Huggle 3 is so clumsy and uncomfortable to use that I hardly use it anymore; and being on Wikipedia IRC channels means that I get enough links to drama and shit that it's very near impossible not to take notice any longer. Beyond that, I've undergone many mental and psychological changes as I transitioned from teenager to adult, and Wikipedia just doesn't seem like a comfortable place to be in any longer. I know a lot of people have left Wikipedia for various reasons, but it's not uncommon for drama to drive people off the project, whether or not they're involved in it. I like helping out, and I don't mind not being acknowledged for it... but I really don't want people to get the idea that I'm an administrator on a website filled with incivility and drama and accusations of "disruptive editing" and "vandalism" (even if it doesn't fit the Wikipedia definition of vandalism, which, after watching WP:AIV for a while, I still feel a lot of "experienced editors" still think content disputes are vandalism). I have thoughts of leaving permanently, something that would never have crossed my mind two years ago. I no longer mention editing Wikipedia to new friends that I make and I no longer encourage people within my social circles to contribute to this project anymore.