User:Lhaktse1234

Life Wasn't Beautiful Without Struggle. (1)
I was born in a village called Tsona in southern part of Tibet in 1983. The village is totally under the control of border army of China and not developed at all during those days. I belongs to a nomads family  and also have small area of fields where we use to plant some vegetables. My father was died with a car accident when I was 3 years old. He was a Khampa business man and my mom use to tell that he was same like my face but very strong and healthy body not pale and thin like me.

My mom  remarried when I was 6 years of age and its totally changed the direction of my life. I flee to India when I was nine as I can not bare the torture that given by my step father. Not only my self but to my mom also, he beat her a lot because of me and he broke three rips of her.

I will never forget that early morning when I stepped out form my tent. Every early morning about three o'clock I have to go to cut the grass from the mountain which is stock for the winter food to Yaks. On that day I got up little earlier than usual and came out form the tent. I went direct to that place where I kept some Tsampa ( barley flour ) butter and little cheese one day earlier. I have a little wary of that if my things get attract from mountain rat, but luckily it was saved. I have a big sack cloth to put grass and a rope to carry it. I wrote a letter to my mom about my decision to flee to India on that sack cloth with a coal and tie it on a rock near by our tent before I left.

I reached the border between Tibet and India ( Bomla ) around eight o,clock in the morning and it was the monsoon season which  helped a lot to my way that all the border area were covered by a very thick fog and no one has seen that I   was  crossing the border. I can hear the voices of Indian armies near by me but they didn't see me.

The first person to whom I met after crossing the border was an old tribal nomads of eastern India ( TAWANG ). It was my luck that he was a Tibetan who flee to India in 1960 and now settled in Tawang, he knew much about my village. At first time he advised me to go back but after listening all my story he took me to his tent and gave me a rice and dal, that was the first Indian meal in my life and I never forget that moment. Then he took me to the Indian border police office. The officer was a Monpa man and he was very kind and good man. He asked me few questions and then decided to keep me over there.

I was kept there for 4 months in their custody and then with the help of some higher ranking officials they sent me to Tawang. After holding one night in Tawang I was sent to a Tibetan settlement called ( Tenzin Gang ) in eastern part of Tibet where I spent almost one year.

Due to improper conditions and absence of family I was sent to Dharmshala from that settlement and admitted me in Tibetan Childcare's Village school. Tibetan Children's Village School is mostly for the children who recently came form Tibet and also for poor and orphan child in various settlement of exile community. But most of students are having their parents and relatives even they are from Tibet.

During those period of time on the way to India I was just 9 years old, I don't have a proper shoes to wear on my foot and proper shirt to wear on top. But when I feel those days under the torture of my step father I didn't feel any pain and difficulties on those struggle.

When I was in school I have never seen the out side Dharamshala for 6 years. We have a winter holiday for two months and most of my home mate are going for holiday with their parents and relatives. Those days were the one of the most unforgettable day in my life. I feel very lonely and sad when I saw  others parents. I can not sleep at the night for few days and always use to cry at night. I realized that life without parents is a tough think at that time.

I have learned a lot of things about Tibet during my school days and as a child under the red flag I was shocked when I knew fact about Tibet from here. My village is totally not aware of all those and I have never seen a monk and nun when I was in Tibet but only in televisions. My village doesn't have much knowledge about Tibet and will do anything what the Chinese government says and  Chinese government also have deep trust on villagers.

Our village has a big border military camp and armies use to train all the villagers how to use all kind of weapons and even a child of 8 years can use guns like AK47. I remember those days when I was in my village school, we have a period of military training and one army use to come to class and will teach how to clean the guns and fixed up the guns. We also have a practical training with carrying wooden guns out side the school campus and on the mountains which was one of my best period of class.

I was sent to college after my school. My college is at Bangalore an Indian city and majority of the student are Indians and we have only few Tibetans. Then I realized how the life is without a nation and freedom. Actually Indian students are not that much bad but still life is totally different from before. When people says Chinese, Nepalis or Japanese to me its pains a lot in my heart.

Beside that even I stays in a Tibetan hostel and getting daily food with free of cost, faced a lots of financial problems. School has provided a scholarship but this was not enough for me if I don't have some background. All those were also a good lesson of my life.

I have also taken some responsibilities in communities during my college life like President of Student council, General sectary and President of Regional Tibetan Youth Congress and also general secretary of Regional National Democratic Party of Tibet. During those days I learned a lot of new things and gained a lot of experiences. I also tried to self immolate myself when Chinese President Hu Jin Tao came to India in November 23rd -2006 to show the feelings of depression to the world and Chinese government by a simple citizen of Tibet. My legs were burnt and still not healed well but I am not feeling guilty because Hu Jin Tao was the first ever visit of a Chinese President to India and also he was the one who implemented marshal law in Tibet when he was head of so called TAR region of Tibet in 1989 and he killed thousand of innocent Tibetans inside Tibet that time.

After my college I was elected as 13th central executive member of Tibetan Youth Congress during its 13th general body meeting in 2007 and now I am working here with holding the post of cultural secretary of Tibetan Youth Congress.

I don't have a proper aim in my life as my struggle is still not very permanent and I always feel like it is sinking in the superstitious faith which world really doesn't want.

All above are struggles of my past life and still struggling on it with following experiences.

1: I realized that life without problem is not a meaningful life. You can know the others problem with more feelings when you are in problem and that makes you more compassionate.

2: It is not very easy to face the problems but always think positive when you are in a problem. For example if you broke your leg, always think those who doesn't have legs then you will feel you  are lucky that your leg is just broke not cut off. Same like all problems if you are a poor you think those who are poorer than you.

3: My problems are my knowledge and my knowledge are my background so I may die without outside facilities but with inner peace.

4: Most important think is that don't feel sad for past mistakes and problems but think better for future achievement. Never compare you with other it will grow more selfish in your mind.

5: I always think that I am  the one but looks different in individuals eyes so I feel like there is many I in my community some people sees me a good man but other will bad some will naughty but some will canny and some will crazy. So I am trying to make myself one in every ones eyes, a good individual.

6: So the key thing is that if you struggle for the problems of life then you will find a meaningful life and if you never faced problem then you will not know what is life so better know the meaning of life before you go from this life.

So I will continue my life in this journey and try to find a meaning of life whether is good or better or best before I go from this life. Hope everyone will go on this way and try to find a meaning of life with full satisfaction.