User:Motleh/Chat


 * 10:04:51 PM szvendetta: I've been out of the public for five years. I know nothing of how you (girls) work. You're a freaking mystery to me. I'm completely socially inept, and basically unable to adapt to others. I met you in feb. and have made no social progress for that and many other reasons. Your friends think I'M weird, but I think they're weird. You don't understand that I'm not your run-of-the-mill nerd who is around the computer but knows a few people here and there. I have no one at all. My social skills are comparable to a twelve year old, because that's where I stopped with people
 * 10:05:46 PM szvendetta: and the more I talk to you and other real life people, the more hopeless I feel. I feel like it's pointless to ever hope to be more than just a friend with anyone, or even that. I feel like not only will I not have kids to carry on my (no doubt crappy) legacy, but I'll never get married, kissed, etc. Because I don't know anything about how sociality works
 * 10:06:08 PM szvendetta: Sometimes I just want to stop talking to everyone, because I feel like I'm going absolutely nowhere
 * 10:06:17 PM szvendetta: and at this point, it's safe to say I am
 * 10:06:39 PM szvendetta: It's not like I haven't tried
 * 10:06:47 PM szvendetta: I just fail to understand, like, everything
 * 10:07:06 PM szvendetta: But that's not my fault. I never chose to be homeschooled way back and end all my relationships
 * 10:07:18 PM szvendetta: and if I went back now, it would be the same reaction as your friends
 * 10:07:21 PM szvendetta: I would be the weird kid
 * 10:07:24 PM szvendetta: so that's clearly out
 * 10:07:39 PM szvendetta: I've been trying to say all that for months now, but just couldn't
 * 10:07:50 PM szvendetta: but I couldn't just be philosophical anymore
 * 10:08:01 PM szvendetta: I'm a 17 year old with the social skills of someone five years younger
 * 10:08:04 PM szvendetta: that simple
 * 10:08:09 PM szvendetta: and it's not going to change over night
 * 10:08:20 PM szvendetta: that's... it... that's all.
 * 10:08:49 PM wvlori7: you couldve just said all that a year ago. i dont like philosophical stuff much.