User:Nessakarimiyan

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	Nahidah Karimiyan, also known as Nessa karimiyan, Nessa Daylami was born on (January 23, 1994) is of Kurdish background born in Sardasht, Iran.

i'm amazed by how people stare at me once and say. stuck up. too good for the world. etc etc. what you don't realise is that your judging my outer layers but inside its always a different image. We all act happy we all act sad, we are all actors without realising. iv'e said this more then a million times, id rather live the pathetic life i am now rather then have luxury just handed to me, because i want to stand up one day and say look what i done, look how far i made it, look who i am now. i want all that glory. The ones that believe in me dont impress or motivate me, its the disbelievers that give me strength. i don't need the world to be proud of me, because the world doesn't hand me life i make and destroy my own. we all approach people by the way they approach you, you say hi i say bye you say whats wrong i say this you judge laugh. for how many months iv'e heard stories rumours everything a human could possibly imagin. The real Nessa doesn't think she's too good. the real Nessa isn't "rich" the real Nessa isn't straight A student or a good friend or loyal or trustworthy i'm everything but my appearance i wont sit there and say i understand because your own mind your own heart is confused. i stand up everyday saying "how?" i life with one person, my mother, a mother that left me home alone by myself while she left the country without any notice, go home to an empty house. how i survived only God can say. got me kicked out of school. called me worthless, and a mistake. my dad turns around and says "who's Nessa?" hit me to a point were i needed insides of my body removed. managed to keep my ass away from a wheelchair for the rest of my life. al because i missed my mum... friends i called blood turned around and laughed at moments were i was standing at the edge of the cliff waiting to jump turning around just to see if they waved goodbye or held out a hand... wasn't allowed to cry in pain or i would have police waiting to take me thinking i was mental... isn't normal for a teenager to suffer from anxiety and depression. boyfriends? we all know how those stories go. thinking their different when really each one gets worser and worser. been called a wannabe 20 year old. thats what made me laugh the most. dealing with a suicidal life from the minute i could understand what mum and dad was how am i not going to act "older" id rather sit there and talk to a 60 year old woman about war and life rather then sit in a pit and bitch about my enemies. not only does it make me feel better as a person knowing at-least i can act a certain age that will get me somewhere in life... iv'e got a brain and i know when and how to use it. now i don't know if i'm right or wrong. but i can sit there and try and make every single person understand and please everyone because my life's not "happy family" money and smiles. its trying to prove a point that even the ones that look "stuckup" have a heart. to be honest i wish i could sit there and worry about who does or doesn't talk about me. but you can call me a slut pathetic a nobody but i'm still standing today holding my up head up because you wont do it for me. now we all have family problems so to the ones that do, why sit there judging peoples ives when clearly you need to sit and sort out your own. we have all shed tears we all hated life we all had stupid thoughts, i'm not saying i'm any different and the one with all the problems because i see pain in the ones that don't show it... they are the ones with the most pain. you hold a gun to the world and to every single person breathing. Pain isnt always physical, laughter isnt always real happiness a broken heart doesnt always lead to a man, make sure those legs can help you walk the right pathways, your eyes lead you to the right sight your mouth speaking words worthy of saying and a brain that helps you move in life. sit on your ass all day santa wont motivate you... you need to stand breath and tell yourself i am one person i have one life live it in a way that you can prove YOURSELF wrong and drop jaws. don't judge because it doesn't give or take anything from you. the world needs to wake up from the life they think they should live and start living the life that your ment to live. You may hate it but you need to accept reality.