User:Newimpartial/sandbox

This is a draft petition that my GENSEX TBAN (closed here) be removed while the anti-bludgeon restriction placed at the same time (also described by the closer here) remain.

I have had ample opportunity to reflect, and I fully recognize that the ban resulted directly from bad habits and irresponsible decisions I made while editing. I also believe that my contributions over the intervening 16 months, taken as a whole, demonstrate that I have implemented enough of the new approach to editing in general (visible in this reply), that there is no benefit to the project from my continuing to be banned from GENSEX. I recognize that if I were to resume the confrontational approach to editing that resulted in the TBAN, community sanctions would result that would be difficult, if not impossible to reverse. I believe that my editing subsequent to the TBAN, including in other contentious areas of the project, has not given cause for concern if my GENSEX restriction is dropped. In particular, I think I have worked past my tendency to personalize disputes; this tendency was brought firmly to my attention in the ANI discussion, viz. this thoughtful comment from an experienced editor; I have avoided personalizing editorial disputes since, and I know that if I were to resume it would most likely be a step fatal to my continued participation on this project. Therfore I ask

(PROPOSAL 1) that Newimpartial's topic ban on the topic of gender and sexuality be recinded

As previously described when I asked permission to work on my appeal in this sandbox (permission granted here), my appeal will not be attempting to relitigate the ANI I am submitting this filing in three parts: a section where I acknowledge why the TBAN was applied, a section where I document my current (less problematic) approach to editing (including in other contentious areas) and a section discussing the neurodivergent blind spots that got me into the mess the first place.

For those who didn't follow the original AN discussion, I was also given a somewhat experimental anti-bludgeon restriction at the same time. I believe that this restriction has been a key support for the improvement in my editing, and I am proposing that it be left in place with one small tweak. When other editors reply on my own Talk page to comments I have made there, I am currently only able to reply to one of their comments in the first 24-hour period unless the editor asks me a direct question. This tends to stifle constructive conversation more than any other effect, and the idea that I would be "bludgeoning" a discussion on my own Talk page seems paradoxical given the purpise of editor Talk pages (as other editors have noted). As an examplee, in the recent discussion ending here could be interpreted as an accidental violation of the bludgeon ban, particularly since I did not frame this comment as a reply to the question immediately preceding. Therfore, I would like for replies to comments made by other editors on my user Talk to be exempt from the 24-hour limit per discussion, specifically:

(PROPOSAL 2) that Newimpartial's anti-Bludgeon restriction, as set out here, remain in force, but replies to comments other editors make on Newimpartial's own Talk page will not be considered violations of the restriction from this time forward.

(Will have to collapse this next section, make it small, or possibly leave it here as an addendum).

1. The context of the original TBAN, with diffs

BLP discussion AndyTheGrump RSN discussion, bludgeoned responses by several editors  Some prior instances of BLUDGEON were cited, including one where I responded like for line with an editor insisting on referring. Another in which I became embroiled in back and forth with a editor who has since been blocked for their editing on FRINGE topics,

2. A walkthrough of my current approach to editing, with diffs

Had difficulty at first understanding that my TBAN applied (under "broadly construed") to issues of editor conduct related to GENSEX. I self-reverted this commet about how another now CBANned editor's comments about nonbinary people like me made me feel. I then opened a discussion at my Talk here - in that forum I was given the opportunity to ask some questions and to express some how how I felt about results of the TBAN (especially the vulnerability I feel as a nonbinary editor in a project where it is routine for editors to dismiss the perspectives of other editors because of our nonbinary or trans identities. I felt better after that discussion and it did help me gain the perspective needed not to ask to participate in various discussions of editor conduct, though the conflicting perspectives of editors about the scope of a TBAN and the scope of BANEX continue to make me uneasy.

Inadvertent vio which I reverted re: Gamergate

Inadvertent violations of my GENSEX ban, such as a comment about sourcing for biographies of female footballers which means prior comments I made at Women in Red, such as this one, were inadvertent incursions into GENSEX.

Attempt to weaponize my restrictions on another topic - the Cultural Marxism conspiracy theory - producing a boomerang

Discussion re: clarification

3. I have taken considerable time to reflect on this, and it seems clear to me that the largest contributing factor to the outcomes of the antecedent RSN discussion, the ANI discussion that prodiced my sanction, and the request for a carveout, which I made in April 2023, were my failure to be aware of and to take strategies to mitigate my aspects of my neurodivergence, discussed here (and subsequently).

From these experiences, I was forcibly made aware of the extent of "blind spots", and in some of these interactions I experienced unexpected results that were quite disteessing. It happened more than once that editors were openly mocking of symptoms and tells of my neurodivergence (e.g. here and here), although some were apologetic afterwards (e.g., here). I observe in particular that my clarification-seeking behaviour has been perceived as argumentative or even bludgeoning especially when I asked for a single-page carveout of my TBAN. Subsequebntly, I have adopted an attitude of openness and learning on this issue to the best of my ability, and haven't noticed any instances over the last six or eight months where neurodivergence had given me - or other editors - any problems worth mentioning.