User:Nitishakujur/sandbox

help me
My name is NITISHA KUJUR and my mom recently found out that I had a girlfriend. My mom had thought that I was straight until a few months ago when she found out for the first time that I had a girlfriend. my mother did not accept it. I am 29yrs old and I am working. I met the girl of my dreams, SHALINI BIHAN,in school. We get along great and she makes me so unbelievably happy. She stole my heart the day I met her and I can’t stop thinking about her. My parents dont understand that she makes me happy and that I am in love with her. I understand that they grew up and were raised in a different society, but in todays society it is widely accepted. why cant I have the freedom to be who I am.when I’m home, I have to live a different life. Its so hard to live two different lives, I absolutely hate it. My mom is scared to tell anybody and when she first found out, she had given me an ultimatum, “to be a lesbian or choose your family”. Its so hard to choose, because my family ;especially my parents, have helped me get to where I am today, but in the end I want to be happy and live MY life the way I want it. It will be hard when I dont have family there to support me, but then again they don’t feel like family if they don’t support and accept the real me. I have had so many fights with my mom, it got to the point that my mom said I was dead to her, that I didnt exist and I wasn’t her daughter.

That broke my heart into a billion pieces. I cried for 5 days straight. My girlfriend was there for me the entire time. Her parents know about us being together and don’t have a problem with it,they even invited me to stay at their house for a week.I had to lie to my parents and tell them I am going elsewhere. I hate lying to my parents. My girlfriend and her parents don’t like the idea that I lie to my parents as well. What am I suppose to do???i am still with my girlfriend. cant leave her.