User:Polinshka

Ani Mai is a girl born on Wednesday the 25th of July 2007. She has only one sibling, her older brother (10 years older) and her mother and father. She is neither a cat or dog person, but would definitely love a small pet like a turtle to add to her edgy aesthetic. Some other useful information is that, her favourite colour changes often but at the moment it is red, she listens to a wide variety of music, some of the artists include, Lana Del Rey (who has been her favourite singer for a long time) she also loves EMO bands such as Panic!atthedisco but does not listen to them as frequently anymore. Ani has a reasonable amount of friends but doesn't consider herself "popular". She is definitely an introvert despite what anyone else says. She is also pretty gayyyy. Like actually gay. She realised at around 9 years of age that she wasn't straight but only came to the conclusion that she certainly does not like men when she was 12. Her brother and her brother's girlfriend (who she absolutely adores and loves like her own sister) both know that she is gay but her parents are yet to find out. Her grand coming out plan is scheduled for when she turns sixteen but nothing is set in stone. By the way, she is butch. Ani is afraid of belly buttons and wrists. There is no need to explain why since they are EEVVIILL. Polina identifies as a weeb, anime is life. BUT, she also loves Asian dramas and western TV shows. Ever since she was a baby, Polina loved to build things and used to dream of being an architect until she started going to tuition that was a few years ahead of the curriculum. Obviously, she hated it but never had the guts to tell her parents, she could never tell them anything. Long story short, she began to hate mathematics and her dreams of being an architect died. All her life, she had a huge issue with self esteem and body image. People (including her family and 'friends') would constantly tease her and call her fat although she was always a healthy weight! Not surprisingly as soon as she hit her pre-teen years, she developed an eating disorder (anorexia to a controllable and hideable degree), but of course no one payed enough attention to it, they never did. Instead of worrying or supporting her, magority of the people in her life told her "Good Job" "Well done for losing weight" "You are much prettier now that you are skinnier" But sadly it was never enough. There were times when she forgot about the diets and useless studying and just gave in to being a kid and having fun but that never really lasted. She would always fall back. To this day she still has an eating disorder, self esteem and confidence issues, identity issues, body dysmorphia and no one she feels she can talk to. She always wished that she was born skinny, with an unusually pretty face, naturally smart, in a rich family somewhere in the U.S where everyone seems to have their dreams come true. But sadly there was nothing she could do. Most of the time, honestly, she was happy, or just used to it at the least. But she was never depressed by it all. She learned to adapt to her unhealthy mindset and that may have possibly been a big mistake but the road back was sadly blocked. Becuase her parents always thought she was confident and smarter than everyone else and just like them they refused to believe that they daughter was not exactly who everyone thought she was and how in a way memories from her "golden" childhood would often bring her to tears and that her unattainable goal of perfection and some messed up approval from anyone else would crush her before she even turns thirteen.