User:RTG/Fear

It has often been said, fear can save your life.

From moment to moment, fear can be your friend.

Fear can motivate you to strength and understanding.

But sometimes when we feel fear, we were never so alone.

Sometimes we feel fear that is about as useful, as if fear feels us.

Fear can motivate you and heighten your senses, but sometimes there is nothing to do with fear, nothing more to be aware of.

Sometimes fear can cripple you. A negative feeling can be so real that your body shuts down, like parts of it no longer know what to do.

Sometimes irrational fear can be simple, and simply make difficulty for interaction. But sometimes irrational fear wants us to suspect the parts of the world around us we have known for so long and loved.

When there is nothing foreseeable to fear, fear can be your worst enemy. When you are at your most comfortable in your self, fear can only feel out of place. From there it seeks a place without leaving. Once it realises it is both trapped and useless, it turns on you, and physically cripples you as powerfully as it might, in a circumstance, be a source of strength.

Irrational fear is about as understandable as a supernatural entity.

A body is a body, and no matter what you may be told or find strength and comfort believing through this life, a body is what you are.

There are two ways as we get older, that our bodies begin to break down and cease to function. One way, but perhaps not the first, is that it becomes broken. It gets twisted and broken and splintered and stretched, blocked and uncomfortable, you eventually lose vitality, the ability to heal. We have all heard the truth, painfully we die, eventually.

The second is just the main cause of the first. We stop using it. You don't stand on your neck any more. Your feet never leave the ground. You try to allow your mind, and not just your body, to decide if you feel right just to be hopping around.

There are pressure points throughout your limbs and body, and eventually, you just don't put weight on them the same way any more. You forget them, or don't find them when you look. Some of them, you never even found because these are the ones which came to you so naturally.

Sometimes in irrational fear, we can feel as though our whole body is going to shut down at once. But there is no way for that to be natural until you have already just died. Take heart, for I have conquered the world. You must move and massage and lean and turn in so many small ways. And you must be, to a degree active.

You are a body. You've got to hit all the right spots sometimes, as you would if you were a child who would turn upside down without thinking, and once there rest, and twist and turn in a way that an older person, might fear.

Even positive fear is a negative emotion. Who knows what you might have to face when you are alone, and nothing even happens. We all have Achilles on our heels, at one time or another.

Be your best, not that you can imagine, but as you are now. As much as you take control of your hands, you must take control of your ankles, just as the child you were, who would stand on their neck sometimes, and twist and turn, and squeeze, gentle but firm. Balance everything,