User:Renaissance the Poet

This is the introduction of how life appeared to me as I began to write. The story behind how I found my pen is as tragic as it is amazing. I was a very troubled adolescent; full of fear; caught in the whirlwind of rebellion; a slave to drugs; a prominent gang member; and prone for prison. During an incarceration the powers to be decided it would be benificial for me to complete a drug rehibilitation while locked up. The treatment councelor gave me these packets that had questions I had to answer about myself. I brought these packets back to my cell and would lay half off my bed to catch the light through the window in the door. Now I had never looked at nor thought of myself in those ways, actually it was very difficult at first. Yet, what I soon discoved was that my entire life I had been completely shut off from showing any emotion and I had absolutely no clue who I was. Strangely, from this individual who only saw the world in black and white, emotions began to flood into me as if a damn had been broken, it overwhelmed me, and my black and white universe filled in with shades of grey and finally color. After that I could not stop writing to save my life and all these burried fears and emotions found their way into the countless notebooks I have filled since. For instance, the struggle to make my stand as a man as far from my father as humanly possible. I was released from prison and wish I could say that I was set on a new path but that was not the case. However, from that moment forth, I always had a note book with me and eventually broke through the delusion that I was happy with the life I was leading. I even made the decision to commit suicide and as I walked to releave myself of this earthly shell, the memory stint in prison came back to me, and that feeling of peace hinted, I could almost taste it. I didn't commit suicide that day, obviously, and I cleaned up for good. It has almost been ten years since that day. Truly, writing has saved my life and through it I have come to discover who I am and who I want to be. "Renaissance the Poet" Music