User:Romel Chakma/sandbox

Fear of extinction

I always wondered the origin of chakmas .I felt proud when my grandma told me the history of our kings and their success .As i grew up to a man i realised,in pursuit for a sustainable career i lost my roots .Since long time i have been away from my parents and the core reason is better education .I still remember the day when i landed in bangalore ,i felt everything is alien to me .My identity reflects buddhist philosophy :honesty ,soft ,non violence and truthful .I see the world through the lenses of Bodhicariya school where my childhood days were crafted .My approach were simple ,never aware about the required traits to sustain in a metro cities where human values are missing unlike from where i belong ;north-east india .Every day was memorable to me ,each day in bangalore thought me something .Cheated by auto drivers ,humiliated in government bus ,stereotyped in by the my classmates and i felt like the city was harassing me .I stayed in kolkata for long time but hardly went out of the school campus .Never explored the city life ,we always went out for a good purpose, so knowledge about the truth of a big city was missing .Most of the people violated my beliefs about people ...i was taught to be compassionate and honest  but that attitude made to believe as loser and easy target .I was occupied adapting to the new environment and in that process i lost my connection with my culture and tradition which is pure and beautiful. My looks trigger people to ask many questions about me and my people .I always felt low because i could not talk much good things about my identity .All i knew what my grandma told me but these tales doesnt fit in discussion with my new environment .I still remember when the faculty asked about us one by one ..The students from delhi proudly tells about his life and belonging .It always gives an extra confident to say "i come from delhi "...The story ends there they dont have to explain much but when its about me all i know is me and my family and my struggle .All eyes were on me expecting something different i could share to them .I felt ashamed of talking about the purity and greenery of my place ,i thought they would laugh at me .We dont have great buildings and fancy cars in the road .Our life at home was entirely different .We have knowledge about each family but here in cities people dont know the people from the same building .My two years in college went on exploring the people and the cities .I agreed to share accommodation with others fours students who all were from different corners of India .It was a wonderful experience which led me to know four different culture .I always in remorse for not able to know much about our culture and tradition. As time went by i grew stronger and the 4 years in college have completely shaped me to a different person .I talk loud ,i argue ,I have become expressive and smart and this time i realised peoples attitude towards me changed .No more soft target. Though i changed myself i have started hating my new avatar .I value the Romel before coming to Bangalore .An honest and pure soul .To my parents and my people i was still the same .All i try to become one of them to make myself fit into the gang .I almost forgot that i belong to Chakma community which was too bad -how can one forget his own identity ? yes it really happened to me .During my time in 2007 there were very chakmas people in bangalore so there were no mingling or gathering among the chakmas. It was during 2010 i with the help of some chakma seniors i conducted a meet to celebrate our most famour harvest festival BIZU .I was in tears when the girls showed up in traditional attires .they sang our folk songs than i realised how beautiful my identity is and how rich and pure it is. Again after a year when Late bada bhante Buddharakkhita (a noble and famous buddhist monk ) blessed us during a meet .He was an scholar and contributed many books for the mankind .He established Maha bodhi society under which many under privileged students were benefited and educated .During his induction - he told the story of the chakma which was not even written in books .From him we all the bangalore chakmas learnt that we are the first decedents of sakya dynasty during Lord buddha time .chakmas are the first buddhist who preserved the religion for long immemorial times. Many buddhist learnt the true nature of buddhist from the chakmas .He even explained the meaning of chakma and how all the chakmas were distributed in different parts of north-east india and Myanmar .Since then i became more confident about my identity as buddhist and a chakma. This brought me close to my people .After that whenever i get opportunity i try to help my people .My learning and experience was dedicated to serve my people. my research about the chakmas people made to think for my poeple .How chakmas are tormented and treated badly after the lost their mother land to the settlers in Bangladesh and in India .The chakmas people have got everything ;rich culture ,own script and place but i believe it was because of their buddhist approach let other people to humiliate us in different forms.We always sought the path of Dhamma the truth .The chakmas never retaliated to aggression and non -violence .In bangladesh their land was taken .The chakma thinkers and social worker blame Nehru for not accepting the chakmas to be in india .History says nehru exchange gave the chakma land to bangladesh and instead he got a land some where in punjab .During Bangladesh independence the chakmas hoisted the indian flag and many were shot and taken to jail by the bangladesh army. I always wonder why our population never increased from the time of Lord buddha .The truth is the chakma population were separated during king Vijagiri .When he went capture other land presently in myanmar he could not able to return even after his father died .He settled there and form another capital .these chakmas they adopted different identity .The younger brother formed another capital somewhere in Bangladesh which is submerged under the water when Kaptai dam was built by the bangladesh government .During these time the chakmas people were badly victimised and had to leave the place .These people settled in NEFA now arunachal pradesh during 1960s. SO during these period the chakmas were badly affected ..brothers got separated from their sisters and families .Their economy was baldy hit but the world chose to keep its eyes closed .Since then the chakmas people were tortured and their land was captured by the illegal settlers in bangladesh .Also during boundery creation some parts of chakma land fell in indian boundary like chakmas in mizoram and tripura .The chakmas who took shelters in NEFA had different story .they walked there to make a new life ,during the journey to arunachal pradesh (presently)many children died out of hunger and deceases .They got no facilities from none again the world shut their doors for them.