User:SCARY CLOWN AZZ/sandbox

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--A lot on my mind examining my emotions at this moment in time..I can grease the public and adapt to the world around me quite well...But why do  have and feel and desire the current emotions as of right now and lately? hi kelly!! yes Kelly I'm talking to you..my emotions for you are of many...there are good emotions and of course sad and somber emotions, lets look at the top FEELINGS ,,MY TOP EMOTIONS, they will speak for me as I examine each emotion and why I feel them..what reasons are they? and why do spray my blood on the happy chart and a few days later draw a line in the sand with a big sad face?from top being the strongest all the way down the 1234 ft latter.. happiness..I feel happiness just being in your presents just to smell you hair and your skin, I feel happiness when I laugh with you make fun of the village swines..I feel happiness when I can protect you, your name, your honor and your heart...I saw your eyes for the first time, I knew I was in trouble but I was happy, happiness was making love to you for the first time to the last. happiness is bliss when my skin rubs against yours, I feel your warmness, your warm heart, your warm soul while Im inside you. I feel happiness when I drooling lust from my mouth or drooling lust from cumming from your heat. happiness from just breathing your air. happiness while kissing your soft lips..I long for your lips, I long for your body, I long for your heart, I long for your touch, I long for you no other girl ..I long for you, no other person... I long for energy because mine is nothing without your aura touching mine.. my 2nd emotion is proud that you love me, proud that I have something i believe in, proud I dont desire another women, yes proud of who i am around you. yet pride is happiness?? 3rd emotion is jealousy, why do I get so jealous, well thats easy ..I don't want to lose you to the heartless, Im jealous  when I'm not top priority wowww that sounds bad, but looking at it I understand why, because I don't want you to forget me ..even for an hour or two. why?? the world is heartless, i understand you, a cold sense of person wont like me, I'm JELOUS  because your not with me, ..I don't let this evil feeling take over my trust for you. JELOUS makes people EXPOSED AND  VULNERABLE,  i dont like being  vulnerable it makes me weak, weakness scares me knowing my heart could be stabbed by betrayal. When you love being vulnerable mean somthing, think, react and feel this...it means you own my heart, you can do what you'd like with my heart..im so madly vulnerable about you, expose my insides, but hold it in your palms and love it like I love my vulnerability towards my baby.. doubt is another emotion. I doubt you loving me as I'm told, why? because why not ??right?? i doubt me as a person, i m not good enough to myself for you, I doubt you need me, because who needs me? people need me when Im of use, then booooom another emotion kicks in my LOVE for you, I trust my love for you, my love for you pinches the energy out of doubt ...not because i force it, but you force my love, you tell me something that pushes the evil doubt, the sad doubt out of my heart. when I dont talk to you for a day, doubt will set in and then I hear your voice..doubt disappears by your vibrations from your heart..i feel it beat, Love from you to me sets my heart at ease..but why do I doubt? I feel we will no longer be ...in some hours or some days when I think you will not be, I cry inside...booom the phone rings"hi baby" doubt melts away like my heart melts when I hear your voice..your newness will always be as long as doubt hibernates... sadness, cold sadness, sitting here thinking of you not loving me makes me sad, hearing your crys, hearinf your sad harbors my sadness ,knowing that we may never grow old together makes me sad, realizing we will never be until the end of life makes me sad, not talking to you makes me sad, thinking ud rather be somewhere else besides with me makes me sad, doubt and sadness are brothers sometimes, love and happiness will melt "DOSA" .sadness takes over when I cant see your pretty face. sadness when I don't hear your voice, feel your skin, taste your lips, grovel your body, sadness its easy....i figured it all out ....my conclusion, my theory , my thoughts...it all means happiness, doubt, pride, lust and sadness really means one thing....that MY LOVE FOR YOU IS STRONG with out all those emotions there is no love,,, I have to feel these emotions and if you feel these same emotions kelly that means you love me...If we as friends , lovers, partners, DONT FEEL ALL OF THESE TOP EMOTIONS that means we don't have love, it would be a cover up , it would never work weather you were with me or not, whether I was with you or not...THESE GOOD AND BAD EMOTIONS MEAN "I LOVE YOU" even when you questions our love because of the situation your in, I love, even when your with JD, I love, even when we disagree tot he extent of anger, i love..When you doubt what yo mean to me i love, when you push me away i love, I have never felt this kind of love, i need this love, i desire this love... im happy that i doubt the sadness because I'm prideful of having you in my life to lust after, and to LOVE.....NEVER THE END ASLONG AS WE BOTH EXAMINED OUR EMOTIONS.>
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