User:Shahulahmed007

For those people (whom i like) who say to study with out knowing the situation.

If I really wanna study I like to stay in heaven and study then the climate and atmosphere will b supportive to me if I stay in hell and if u say to study sorry I can't I m a human

{Heaven is ur presence.}

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I liked a gal dhil se after a long time due to Allah's will I met her v talk, share , care each other v spend so much time with each other almost a day

knowingly or unknowingly she became a important part of my life or can say as reason for my smile. :)

for that I seriously thankkkkkk fulllllll Allah for all those happy moment's and all :D

but as all know there always b sm fights in a happy life :p soooo..... even I face such things first I got irritated later I realized and considered it as a test if I failed left or broke my patients I may loose her or else relationship would bcm worst

so I literally try'd and made my best almost sacrifices my self for her I never felt sad or smthing on it ^_^ although her talks or beavier makes me mood off or make me cryyyy too :/ I feel like she only na ;) if she won't then who will do bolka 8) if I don't cry for her then for whom will I cry so I take those things easy (:

I explain her all time hw I feel for her <3 I say her Wt is she for me :p I will explain her what role she play in my life (future) {Insha Allah she will} :D :*

as everyone know there will always b interruption in good things o.O> same like that she faced few things by which she started to think all these things which I m doing ( carrying and talks and share are bad) so she started being as a gal who didn't recognize me buttttt even those things I handle by saying and giving explaining to all not once or twice more than ten times but even that was dam OK as it's my responsibility to say her (I think so)

I was a bit packed but I was satisfied with my day :O

those were not my problem :p

my problems were :(

literally sometimes when I explain her say her with all my feel with all emotion she just listens and again she comes to first point that's catch some one else na

yeh Allah :'( the only thing which really makes me feel to few  think

I feel like y did I got such a gal whom I gave all type of carrying (love kind stuff ) from all side of my heart mind and sole

but seriously I cant make a day with out her with out a talk with out a look directly to her eyes

yeh Allah :'( I don't have much stamina to listen or face there things again and again I feel like wishing to get injured like koma smthing kind off so that all my thoughts get erased with out any pain

but don't wanna as I wanna live for my mom and dad and of course my sister

yeh Allah :'( my last wish for you is bring the days for me in which she like\love me dhil se and she should only b my future gal

yeh Allah !!! I m ready to face and have more such pains, if u promise to full fill my wish

for nw
 * 1) I THINK THAT YOU GAVE ME A WORD #

hmmmmm.....

okay

let me say in descending order

first sacrifice

the hard one { permanent }

> let all females whom I use to care, with whom I spend my time , talk or console them ( including childhood friends )


 * 1) REASON TO IMPLEMENTATION

=> I wanna spend all that time all such stuff with her and I don't wanna make get any miss understanding that I m have someone else in my heart ( bdw she don't have any miss understanding I think so )

sooooo..... left all

>Change in behaviour \ Character

>>Started to live as she expects her shohar (future husband) { Insha Allah it b me :p }


 * 1) REASON TO IMPLEMENTATION

=>To make her think that I have such quality which she expect :p

eg,. doing namaaz and reminding her

mostly Islamic stuff

started to listen all her hates and likes which she like to hear or don't like to

started to behave like that

such as fighting, and having Patience

haaaa forgot to say

same as we know in every place there will b a person whom we like and hate

same like that even I don't like a gal

don't knw y I guess

I don't like her behavior

or her character

or herrrrrr mind set

or her way of living

I guess the above all reasons

now here twist is dat gal is best friend of my gal

I guess you got off an idea hw I feel

a place were like hell in heaven

sooooo.....

Wt I wanted to say is before I change for her

nw for her friend I have to change

actually she don't like me to express such hatred on her friend

so I started to act in front of her

as if she is ma friend

forgot to say the latest update

hmmmm....

29/10/13

I stopped

I mean stopped almost two thing

1.) expressing my thinking what I feel for her ( for which she think as double meaning or non veg talks )

2.) I don't knw hw to say or express

I will say later pakka

today she gave Me a new twist again as expected she said me few things to follow and obv I have to soooo...... today she said off directly y to talk unnecessarily, y do u just cm near our bench in lunch , y don't u b with boys OK short cut she said not to b much with her

I always don't understand a thing in gals " y do they care, listen, respect and cry for others rather than me (loved once)"

same like yesterday mood off but didn't cried like yesterday just about to, unable to walk due to excess emotion and feel from the dark part of my heart , legs get shivered.

I m afraid of one thing as all know when a guy gets effected many times to a single heart problem, at a certain time they will loose their breath even I m getting scared Wt will b my result if I keep on getting such results

some times I get laugh on me thinking that I was the bad strong and cyco type of guy who don't at all dam care gals I mean like stone hearted Anddddd nowwwwww.... I m a guy who keeps on crying seriously I didn't expect I would <3 her in such a depth so that I get such tears

anddddd more ever I didn't even had my lunch and in hurry didn't ate breakfast and from before only I was mood off in that morning morning she gave me a vierd face expression and gave me new stuff to do seriously I m saying na my stomach was burning and mind was in solid state frezed and such situation she was saying me shahul plz go out, don't cm to my bench , I need to eat lunch , I literally begged her I will sit side of u , u keep on eat and just listen what I say (I said) but she said "No I don't wanna listen" u go , she didn't reply'd as I expected which made me hurt as usual.

so then today I moved on to my friend in boys (Sanket mishra), and bcoz of him I bunked today , missed my evening class and met few other friends , so Wt it was waste I was missing her badly my mind was not dr on Wt they were sharing with me , I was just nodding my head.


 * 1) I M JUST WAITING FOR THE DAY WHEN SHE WILL UNDERSTAND ME.

I don't wanna change her mind set, way of living or life style by saying her about my feeling I can wait for the day when get such stuff from her heart with out any second though (for such things, she says I m not like those gals and I don't have feelings) { but that idiot kitty don't know that I know that she have feeling, emotion and all } [ it was writen in holy books that every creation of human race, each and everyone have feelings and all such stuff ]

=> today I felt sm Wt happy when she came again to meet me and talk a bit (she tried)
 * 1) small secret