User:Stella Suk

Stella Suk is the most wonderful girl I have ever met. I have many feelings for her and she is the girl of my dreams. Everything started out when I met her on March 25, 2007 through the "Lord's Prayer." We were both introduced and soon enough considering each other "friends." I had the time of my life hanging out with her and those days were just incredibly amazing. We used to always talk to each other in any form at anytime: Myspace, Facebook, Text Msg, and best of all were those 3 hour phone calls during the school nights. I was always comforted by her warm hugs and constant excitement when she saw me at church and her priceless smile always compels me to be a brighter person. Serenity would always enshroud me at her presence and I would melt at the sight of her.

Everything about her was just amazing but a friendship I once considered as "best friends" started to break down. All communication with her dropped to a bare minimum. We didn't have time to hang out. My birthday seemed like a great time to reestablish a better friendship with her but I surely screwed that up. She started to give up those big bear hugs on sundays and she started to disappear from many services. Soon enough I joined the praise team and I started to give up sitting next to her during service. She started to ditch small groups and soon enough I didn't even get to see her on sundays anymore. I truly began to miss her and I would wish everyday that things were like old days.

I tried everything to rebuild our friendship but nothing I did helped out and that is when I decided to go into prayer. I always had feelings for her but theres always that chance "what if I'm just acting on impulse because she's hot?"..."what if this is a rash decision?"..."what if she really isn't the girl God has chosen for me?"..."what if I'm hurting her?" So I decided to pray and just pour out my love to God because "love" really is a strong word and God deserves my whole love before Stella. I stood in prayer for 6 months and I began to have dreams(signs) of who she really was and her purpose in my life. Not once did she appear negatively or horribly in my dreams. After 6 months I finally decided that she seems like "the girl" and that is when the "attempts" began.

Song
This is the song I wrote for her (Verse)

Love at first sight

Guess it’s just my luck

You’ve been there in my life

Times I’ve been stuck

When I stare into your eyes

The whole world just disappears Every thing goes blank My worries and fears

(Pre-Chorus)

You’re like the moon Brightening up my life

You make happiness

From my hate and strife

Fell in love with you

Just when I met you

You glow with great beauty

Like a blazing white star

(Chorus)

The love I’ve had for you

Will never ever fade

It’s sewn in my heart

So it can’t fly away

It’s hard to believe But I now truly know

That once I felt the love

The heart starts to grow

(Verse 2)

The aroma of your charm

Never too much to glamour

The secret was mine

But now is the time to see

It’s at your presence When all the stars and planets

Form on your behalf

Of your great elegancy

(Outro) It drives me insane

When you’re not around Sickness and emptiness

I stumble to the ground Through this thing called love I’m in that place once again So there’s no point at all Of hiding it from you You’re my one true love

That I’ve been dreaming of… waiting for…

hoping to be with…

The Story Continues as Long as I Exist to Write and as Long as You Exist to Write About
Hey Stella. I know that you are probably going to read this someday and that you are going to be like wow Edwin I can't believe you would do something like this, but personally this was the best way for me to express my feelings...to write it out. I have very strong feelings for you and they have developed over the course of our friendship. We have known each other for around a year and a half and just knowing you has been the greatest thing to me. One thing that just depresses me is how our friendship somewhat fell apart like that, but I kept hope always reading the birthday card you gave me saying "I Hope We Can Be Better Friends" hoping that you would continue to show care to the importance of our friendship. I have learned a lot from you and you are a very exciting and wondrous person. I know this whole situation may be awkward and very surprising but knowing that God has control over this I had to put it out in the open. I also know that when I first met you that you just weren't ready for relationships but this has been something taken into deep consideration and acted upon thought and emotions rather than impulses. I also want to thanks you for being such a great friend when I was oh so lonely and I just wanted to say that you were really the only person I could always talk to and feel comforted by and you always put a smile to my face =]..........

.....The minute i even thought of expressing my feelings for you, i knew what your answer was going to be. I somewhat had hope of the opposite but i cant change what you think of me so i used the occasion to penetrate into the deeper reason of how our friendship broke down. The only way to prevent that would be to figure out each others flaws wont it?.......

Conclusion
I Love You Stella Suk -Edwin Cho ...but most importantly, I wish we can become even better friends. For I would do anything to re-live the older days where we just spent so much time with each other. There are going to be times in friendship thats if you even ever talk to me that are going to die out like it happened but we shouldn't let it go like that and we should try hard to maintain that friendship. If I'm worth of any importance to you as a friend I know that you would act upon a dying friendship and I consider you vital to my friendship/comfort so I shall act upon the situation as well.