User:Vphuang

Time and tide wait for no man! I spent much time on reading and now I am a middle-aged person. As I am up to middle-year, my sense and sensibility gradually turned broad-minded. My life has filled with sufferings which are difficult to address, bespeak and explain to the other people. Although most of my appreciated ideals and vocations turn out to be infeasible designs in my career, it is meaningless to articulate the resentful and regretful history. In their virtuous tutorials, Confucius and Chinese sages have indoctrinated us, for instance, the precious moral lessons about we shall abide to conduct, the principles of moral truth during the rash time or when we situate in the rigid time. Practice is the .essence of moral lessons. Along the way my personal life style and health have increasingly deteriorated. To confront sufferings squarely has sharpened my bearing competence and the insight of my weakness and has cultivated the compassion toward general people. The world outlook has gradually shifted from the subjective to the objective perspective.

My inherent inclinations have two contradictory dimensions, one dimension is the “Byronic temper” (in Bertrand Russell’s sense) and another dimension is the instrumental prudence. When I was young, I was vigorous comprehensiveness and imaginative spontaneity. My lasting wonder and pursuit have never been satisfied and stayed on a spot. If I could stay for a longer duration, I remembered, it not merely led to combination of sorrow and happiness but equally to anxious sufferings and struggles; the concrete perfection and the beautiful span become the target of the temporary pursuit. Despite if I grasped and possessed the aforesaid target, the satisfaction will be displaced and shattered by another rampant pursuit. The consequence of grasping these wonderful targets often results in an apparent satisfaction but lack of rationality.

Based on the perfectionism, the experience almost established a skeptical attitude toward the intellectual research and in dealing with the regular life as follows, “I deeply believe that the true is not the dear as well as the dear is not the true.” But if I always uphold such skeptical attitude, it is absolute that the evident frustration will make me completely break down at last. Despite this is harmful and unproductive, if it is positively applied, it might lift and make me easily. After experiencing various hardships and sufferings, I have strengthened myself, I have ameliorated my weakness and I have retrieved the wisdoms from Chinese Buddhism as a more prudent and rational scholar.