User:Yuuka Kuran

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WISH YOU WERE HERE

When a few years have passed

I’ll never forget the day

Someone rang to tell me

That you’d gone away

The hurt is the same

Like an open wound

There are days

I don’t utter a sound

Some days the pain is stronger

It makes me sick and weak

I can’t stand this much longer

I just sit here and weep

I’ve shut my private door

And let no one in

Locking myself in a box

They try, but I won’t give in

You were like a rock

Strong, faithful and true

What worth has my life

Now I don’t have you

I was your first born

Daddy’s little girl

I took my own path

But was still part of your world

I was not the best

Guilty of neglect

But you know daddy dearest

I had so much respect

I always loved you

My dad, my star

Now my pain is

To worship you from afar

I love you now

As I did back then

I just hope... one day

I will see you again

I am so proud of you

Brave and strong to the end

Now when asked “how are you?”

There is no need to pretend

We all love and miss you so much, sleep well

and take care of all who went before you

Forever in my heart ♥

READ THIS IF YOU WANT
Cause :

1. It's about my tragical history

2. If you want to know, how is the feeling if lost dad

September 08 2005

The time is 12:00 PM, I was in Germany still in my school in a study , then I realized a bad feeling a feeling that I will lost someone important , and in my heart I whisper "who will be leave me ?" , too bad no answer ... Then when it's time to home, I get a e-mail from my Dad in Japan ... He said he will be visit me in Germany ... Well , when I hear that I was happy cause now my beloved Dad will come to Germany , he said in 09 September he will go to Airport and on the way to Germany and arrive when morning ... Well, it's take a few hours from Japan to Germany , but whatever it doesn't matter !, as long as my dad come I will wait until he come!!

In my walk, my feeling was very happy cause... My Dad will go to Germany , but suddenly I remember about my feeling , that I will lost someone important , and whisper "did dad will leave me to heaven ?,did he will get an accident while in plane ?" , I was worry, but I believe my dad will okay !, and he !, will be in Germany save !, but that feeling haunted me .... Until I can't sleep and focus in my study... Very bad !

September 09 2005

I was so happy ,my Dad will come at 04:00 AM the date September 10 2005!, well I was very happy, but a little sad with my bad feeling worried about Dad , and yeah I'm the one of idiot club (green day fans) , when September 10 , Billie Joe Armstrong father is dead .... Well I as one of Idiot Club , I, also condolences to Billie...

September 10 2005

Well !!, my father will arrive now !!, he will be waiting in my school gate or in the lobby of my apartment, so I take a quick step !, I clean my bed and take a bath , and put every book to my bag and make a breakfast Cereal ! (well I remember it clearly ), then I eat very quick and suddenly I get an phone from my mom in Japan ,she was said something that make me terrible totally super Shock !!, you know what ? " あなたのお父さん...ダイは...日本の空港に向かう途中で..." the meaning is "your dad... is die... in his way to airport in Japan..."

She said that ... And I cry, cry and cry , I can't believe my dad was die ... I ... I... I was cry really loud , I doesn't care everyone was looking at me and say anything strange to me ... But... I really can't believe !!!, my dad... My beloved dad... My only one dad... Is die... Only one word that in my head "DIE" , only that... And ... Suddenly I was faint...

I woke up in my rooms, there are my cousins that one school with me Winna , she already know that my father is die... She was cry too... Because she doesn't have dad when she born , her dad die when her mom pregnant her... She was love my dad , until she call my dad with "Daddy" , she said In the night we will go to Japan ...

September 11 2005

I was in Japan now.. It's morning... And a little bit cold cause it's Fall... When we arrive, I go to hospital with Winna , and when we arrive in hospital we look my mother , was crying in her sister , Winna's mom ... She cry without stop ... Then I walk gently but fast , beside my mom there are yuuki my twins she crying too... I sit beside mom , and say ... "ここでお父さん？" , that meaning "where dad ?" and no one answer me ... Then I look at winna's mom and she only whisper "in the morgue", I was shocked... , the first I not believe it , but my mom only shake head mean "yes" , I was crying loudly .... Calling my dad name , but Winna say "何泣いてそこに必要はありません...彼はすでに佑香に行く...今、私たちはお父さんを訪問することができます..." ,,, and I crying loudly ... I know there no need to cry cause he already not here... Winna take my hand gently, and she take me to morgue...

In the morgue, I open The shroud... I was see my dad with not great face... But I realized... His body was warm , my tears dropped in his chest ... And a tears out from my dad eyes... His eyes is closed... But I can see the tears... It's real tears !!, Winna who stay beside me , saw the tears too... And we calling dad loudly , and we said "我々はあなたがパパ大好き！" means "we loves you daddy !!!" , and we look a smile, that suddenly appears from my dad lips ... And we cry more loud ... His smiles change being angry face... That mean he won't me cry ... So we (Winna too) , wipes Our tears and smiles with a happy face... My dad face seems really happy , he show his smile...

This is a magical moment !!, my dad who already die can smile, angry , and cry... What a magical moment !!, I and Winna keep this magical moment cause I want proof again , in the night I will do spirits talk , that I was try talking with the spirits....

September 11 2005

At night I begun my ritual, no one know except Winna ... And I begun to talk , about the magical moment that was I see in the morgue ... A few hours later , I already know the reason why I get a magical moment ... Because dad... Is beside me and Winna ... He do a connect with his body , the real he talking but his face only show emoticons ... But I was glad... Now my dad will go to heaven peaceful, he said in France

"Yuuka, yuuki, Vienne, bon d'accord?, faites le make votre cri maman ou folle avec vous ... provoquer papa te regarde là-haut ... yuuki dit "ne jamais abandonner", a déclaré à Vienne "la musique est votre âme. et trop Yuuka "esr-ce que vous aimez la vie avec un" " that was meaning ...

"yuuka, yuuki , winna, be good okay ?, don't make your mom cry or mad with you... cause  dad watching you up there ... said to yuuki "never give up" , said to winna "music is your souls. and too yuuka "you will life with a love"

That was he said, I end the spirits talk ... And said what that said... But that still mystery with what he say to us...but I was glad... He still watching us...

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