User talk:Ashleyfehler

Sooooooo Ashley Fehler is my name. I have a plan in life. It's exiting :).. i plan to move to california when i turn 18 take a year off college and explore and have a good time, then get back to whats real.. while im out of college i want to get an internship with a magazine company because i really like fashion and the idea's that i could contribute to a magazinge i think would help me go far. I have come a long way in so many ways and changed. I started off a normal girl just tried to keep good grades and make my parents happy and figure out who i am, then my life took a turn when i went to go live with my dad, and i started "living" a little more and not in a good way. i started partying and getting into lots of bad thing. Much time after this had been going on my dad and i had had been getting in huge fights.. horrible fights that would not end well, i was running away and doing even dummer stuff.. it basically didn't help anything.. my grades were slipping my freshman year i had 0 credits and started my sophmore with 0.. i was not even trying i basically gave up on myself.. then my mom moved down where my dad did and i moved in with her because i hated my father thinking he was the worst parent in the world.. when my mom first moved down i was thinking it was going to be fun i could sneak out.. i could go party and she was easy going.. it wasgunna be super easy and fun. Then i got into more trouble with sneaking out and drinking and lot's more my mom could take it and decided to crack down.. around this time was already horrible because i had lost my BEST friend who still to this day doesn't care for me.. it was all over a rumor, and it hurt her which i had never meant to do.. it ripped me apart and tore me and my best friend apart which hurt the most. Highschool was becoming a nightmare and i know everyone says "godd highschool sucks blah blah".. but i felt like i was letitng everyone else down because i had potential i even know i did.. and i was throwing everything away, i did nothing great i lowerd myself. I started getting scared of where my life was going.. i didnt know what to do.. i had been thinking this whole time that the most important thing was getting high and drunk and hanging out with the hottest guy, and in the end.. just a couple months later.. none of it even matters anymore.. i didn't get anywhere.. i don't talk to half those people anymore, i don't care about any of the same things.. talking to that one girl because everyone wasnt's to be her.. talking to him cause he is the hottest.. i just wish i could have taken the time to make the best and to actually make true friends and to meet someone that apreciates me and not to get into drugs and bull like that. my mom came to me with an idea to go to this school that UA's you and is .. lets say easier.. it worked for me.. it was diffrent and hard to get used to, but it was worth it.. i had changed my friend and made other changes. however nothing changed in the drug erra, it was actually harder than normal because it was around me way more. it was becaoming easier to get and everything. Then i met this guy who is super great and fooled me