User talk:Bernekawhite

I think that i am the uglist woman on earth. i think this because of the rejection I get from my boyfriend. He has been associationg with other woman since the day we meet. And he decided to try to be faithful with me only after I had his child. I am in so much pain, depression, and hurt that I am scared I mentally wont be able to handle this anymore. I have been trying to seek help but everyone says this is a natural part of life. I beg to differ. Now I feel trapped because I have three kids and I dont wont them to be with out a father figure but I am tired of this seeing all the pain inside of me.

I thought love was ment for pleasure and not for pain is it just me or is something wrong with my brain. is the one you love the one who kills you and drives you insane? or is it just that you are worthless and the one to blame? I am lost in this puzzle trying to find a way out. but this is only an enterence and no end may I am paying the price for all of my sins will god look down and show mercy one me? or will I just die crying beging for love one one knee?