User talk:Bross10

Love and Its Uncertainty
Clarity: the quality or state of being clear. Surety: the state of being sure; as of sure knowledge. Confidence in manner or behavior. For once in my life, I lie here wondering where clarity comes in. where does life’s uncertainty finally take its last toll, so that the people, who need some sense of clarity, will find it. I begin to wonder if it will ever happen. I am at a complete loss, not knowing what to do, what to say, or what actions to even attempt taking to make this situation better. I know that as humans we find ourselves wanting something that we think is best then at an instant, our minds become changed. For me, for the first time-this isn’t the case. For the first time, ever, I know what I want and who I would fight for. But, as the old saying goes, it does take two to tango. Unfortunately for me, my surety isn’t enough right now. For that other person, this hope that I find easy to hold on to, is not there. Or maybe it is, but they are too scared to hold tight to something, knowing that this could work; would work. At times, because we are humans, we do doubt. It becomes a natural thing to become doubtful; it’s whether or not we let it take control of us. I find myself sure because of how I feel. I know that in my heart, I could make this work; with a little time of course. It’s the sense of knowing that I can make someone else happy. Possibly happier than they have ever been, no strings attached. Be their everything; having nothing, yet everything to give. Holding my arms open, so that person can find comfort, hope, relieve, love, and a sense of security knowing my arms have a virtual sense of never letting go. It’s the though that when I see this person, everything else is temporarily forgotten. My fears, my failures, my insecurities, everything I worries about, was gone. Is gone. Running into this person’s arms, I can find all I need there. I wish they felt the same. I wish I could prove that I could be their everything. Everything that they ever needed, or wanted, or dreamt; I could be that. Surety. Something I finally have. I just, I just wanted that from them. Was that too much to ask for? Was it too soon to ask for something like that? I would fight for this. That, that is my line, I cling to knowing that when my situation is over, that person would be there. If that isn’t enough, then I don’t know what is. This, is hard. Love, is hard. It is never said to be easy. They have experienced love in a certain way, and me, my own…but we could never say we have experienced love, to the fullest, at each other’s own. Maybe that is why we feel so differently about the situation. But you see, I used to be scared to love again, and to be loved but this, this situation, has caused me to see that I cannot be that way. I choose to not be that way. This has shown me that love has so much to offer me if I could just stop being scared; being afraid of failure. I don’t know how exactly to make this work, but I know it would and I know that it could. The question is, will that person choose to let me make this work. I assume that one day I will find out the answer to my uncertainty. When, I do not know the answer to “when.” But when you fall, and no, not the simplicity of a natural fall; a head first fall into something that you don’t even know everything about, but you don’t worry because you fell in love with that person, you can’t just let go. If for some reason, you are forced to let go-that is a different story in itself. But in your heart, you cannot completely, ever, just let go. It is not that easy. Your heart has a given itself away to that person, whether or not they have accepted it; and once you do that, life becomes difficult. It’s just a matter of looking past the difficulty, the uncertainty, and any other doubt that may come to your mind and letting love, rule you. Maybe I am the only person experiencing this, but I am experiencing it to the fullest, knowing that I am in love and I choose to let love win in this situation. I may never know what this would have been or could have been, but at this moment, I know what is right and I am choosing to let love rule me-not anyone else. I just hope and wish that they other person on the end of this very fragile line, will choose the same thing. If they do, I know that I all have my chance to be everything for that person. Do all in my power to prove that I have all to give. And if they do not, know that I didn’t ask myself “what if...” I would hate to wonder what would have happened or what could have; therefore, I choose surety-without clarity. Why? Simply because love conquers all.