User talk:Charliebdetroit

Thursday night.

Deception lies only in the mind of the catalyst and the receptive are contributors to manipulating a problem, But is it really a problem. A boy raped too many time to count and grows up to be Gay, Bi or Straight, is that really his problem. The concepts of the misunderstandings are deceptive and apparently mis-used, unfortunately we live in world  where people are catagri

Hey you! I know its been a while sense we've last spoken. and a while sense I've written. I wanted to call but as you know my circumstances won't allow me too. I hope your ok. Sometime i wonder what would it have been like been like with you but as we both know I'm without but, I'm try to take this time to figurer things out because theres a lot going on up here and i haven't found the sense of it all but I'm working on it, i think somewhere in the middle of us  both I've lost you but  i do plan on meeting back with you when my mind clears, My mom asked about you recently, and all i could do was reminisce on what was, but we aren't now. and i can't except it cause its painful for me to realize that although i Love you, I'm only hurting you trying force-feed my iniquities, and in the mist of my neglect to better my self I've lost you, I know i haven't haven't been the best I've can i concure but I'm  uncertain of the maintenance behind how to fix this disaster I want to be able to

The Night Life

Music Bumpin, Base Droppin, Boom!!! the lIght flashing zooming and l up the room the aroma of a long drunken night begins

So, I saw you called me the other day, and we talked briefly, You told me you where ready to talk, Before calling you back I took the time  to think about a few things.

What Should I Believe

Believing is understanding life and its purse to our being in a world of  Christians, Catholics, Atheist, Buddhist etc. Life is only the meaning to a better world after or at least enjoying the on that we are in now. Asking or forcing some one to believe is not a priority we should require or expect, But believing in something is the key to Understanding your purpose your being Your life on this earth.

Sexuality

The minds d spirit and soul

Young Mr. Martin

Emasculated by race to the Impervious world we live in today, the likely hood of a short life to him is now a statistic the world had to face against the belief of someones mind to wind down to a slow sleep he didn't except. His face hidden by the  hood to mask his Identity. to be masked with the Judgment of his killers trial. "All Rise" The court sherif yells to the jerry

Caution Resist from the oppressed, divine oracle time and its distress put to ret by a white the

Numb my skin i refuse to feel anything at all, Im Recovering from myself and nothing, cause time refuses to stall. Excuses for my disipostion I continue to repeat, explaining to people continuously  about Why and What For when I am entitled or owe no explanation too. I want to feel free to relieve myself from life's inhibition when I feel obliged to all relationships I create, holding on to insignificant and irrelevant social endeavors causing me to have pointless migraines. these people are Worthless leaves that fall in the season when i though you where a branch that may last some time  but unfortunately you fail off,  just as fast as the wind blew you away. I barely even have the time to eases my mortar that has been smeared like glue to keep me attached, for what? I do not care for this anymore, make me numb defuse my attraction toward and illness i call "You" to relieve from the immoral pain you have plastered in-between the crevasses of my emotions in countless attacks to puncture my stability and to now mock my failed attempts to freed witch now leads me to a broken patients. Now I want to numb the possibility of your hurt and remove you from my own circle i un-spokenly created with you. little do you know you where just a radical stimulus to a momentary impulse. I regret and I asks myself why do i regret  anything at all when I made the choice to  continue my love for you anyway you were like family to me and no your  and illness I use to call my best friend now because of you I  refuse to continue Long  term  relationships with people that could be  a wonderful outcome because of you I want to be numb.

Resistant

Have you ever left out of town and thought you had everything, exactly placed fitted and put together but just as soon as you  made it  you remember you left the one thing that was most important to you behind. That feeling of "Damn! What the fuck was I thinking." Some time people loose sense of whats important and neglect their happiness, their motivation, their strive. Sometimes life moves so fast that you don't have time reflect on what was important in the first place and continue with an empty feeling inside knowing that something isn't right or something just seems to be missing. When at one time or another it was there. Oh yea, it was there, staring you in the face and in your presence. But as you should know, these things are easily taken for granite and will not always be around, and you don't know what was all there until you find the perfect place for it and its not there for you to position.

Damn! I don't know, the ambience in the atmosphere seem to have had some effect on mind, Im often mesmerized in the  moment and some how loose  track  of myself, maybe I'm  just a forgetful person or maybe my confidence of being able express the way i feel has hindered my mind to remember all I do know i that that chance to regain the lost has long sense been forgotten.