User talk:Compudoctor

I am pleased to speak to you about a special disease, a special disease that does not happen to very many people. Sickness is merely a mirror that shows us where we are in our relationship to the Light, how close or how far we are from it. In fact, it is my belief that it is not a bad thing to have an illness. It helps us to flush out the toxins in your body. In fact, sickness is part of a healing transformation. It heals our bodies. Now let us get back to the content of this special disease. The particular disease I am talking about is not one that every person will have, or know about. It is known as NEUROFIBRAMATOSIS or, in short NF. What is NF and what causes it? It is a damaged gene, which is located at Chromosome 17 at the nerve ending. NF is a rare inherited disease that causes multiple non-cancerous tumors on nerve in the skin. A genetic disorder, which causes tumors to form along nerve sheaths. The abnormal gene for NF can be inherited from one parent who has the disorder or can result from a new mutation (change) in the normal gene. The parent may be affected or have such a mild form that he/she may be unaware of having the disorder. Thus, NF can occur in a person who has no family history of the condition. Having a family history of NF does not put a person at risk of having NF. Inheritance of the abnormal gene in each form of NF is autonomic dominant, so that any child of a parent with NF has a 50-50 chance of inheriting the NF gene and showing at least some signs of NF eventually. I was diagnosed at a very young age. I am 48 years old now. They started appearing just after I was born. How does NF affect me in my daily activities? It helps me to follow my heart, listen to my inner voice, and have a deeper faith. I believe God has a plan for those of us who have this condition.

I know that our fate was written before we were born. We selected our journey. How we walk our lives and the direction we take will play out as we move along our path. We always have choices during our lives but our souls agree before we are born to follow certain guidelines in order for us to grow and develop spiritually. This is our chosen destiny.

I was born with a genetic disease known as NEUROFIBRAMATOSIS. With this disease, my life has been full of painful experiences. I did not perceive light at all. I saw darkness. I was discriminated against by people in a variety of ways. It was a very hard time. It was like walking into a dark tunnel; I didn’t know which way to go. I lost my direction and I lost my senses. However, at the end of the tunnel there has always been a silver lining. Happily, this helped me to continue. I was able to regain my senses and found my way out. There is an old saying that a rainbow appears after a storm.

However, everything has happened for a reason. It happened after I had the lesions removed in my face. I started to accept myself. Prior to that, when people were talking to me about God I simply resented it. I felt angry. Because in my mind I rejected God. I would say to them that there is no God. I didn’t believe in God. I did not want to hear about it. Period. If there is a genuine God, why did He let things happen to me the way they did? I was born with a genetic disease, with no family history and no one in the family manifesting it. I have experienced a lot of rejection from others over the years. So where is there a God, if there is one? Where is He? Is He blind? Can He not see how much pain I have had over the years? All these questions have come up from time to time. All I have had was painful experiences during my 47 years living on earth.

Not long ago, things started to improve and get better. I started to see a bigger picture! I perceived life differently! I started to see the wisdom of the Almighty God. I believe we change because we don’t stay in one situation all the time. Things are changing or evolving and set into motion. Every movement, every change we make will process new life for us. At the end, we all see the clear picture of our soul’s journey. In other words, we see enlightenment. My life has changed after my face surgery. I perceive life at a different angle. I start to appreciate what I have and appreciate God. I feel bliss and joy. I feel strongly that GOD does exist and he is watching over me. He cares and loves me. He knows what I lack and my soul’s desires. He shows me he cares. I have changed over time to believe from disbelief. He has led me to find my life’s proposed. He spoke to me in a quiet voice. In the voice, he told me to give a speech about my illness. I did speak about it. It made me feel wonderful. God has said, “Give to others and so too shall you receive”. All these years of emotional resentment have now disappeared. I accept that what I am… I am. I have also accepted something else, which is normally unacceptable. I am not fighting myself any longer. I can stand in front of the mirror and face myself. I am not fighting it. I feel stronger and stronger every day. I feel that God dwells in me. God is around me…beside me…below me and above me. Now I feel joy. I feel God’s peace. My inner state is at peace. I choose all my experiences to be joyous and loving. I have recreated my own reality with the help of the Almighty Father. In closing, I believe that everything happens for a reason. I accept who I am and what I am. I believe that I cannot improve on what God has created. Please remember that we are all created by God for a higher purpose. What we choose to learn in this lifetime is very important for our soul’s progression. How we learn these lessons vary from person to person. You see the visible path that I agreed to take but other souls have very specific paths of their own. Bless each day for what we are given in lessons to improve our soul’s journey. I now feel thankful to God that I am in the mood of deep gratefulness. I hope that you will understand my message. Thank you very much for listening. Live well and God bless.