User talk:Freegalper

As the days pass one by one, week by week, it seems to get easier to bare the the burden of life as it happens. One August 11, 2010 my daughter died due to suicide. It was also the same day that I moved into my fiance's home. It's been one episode of calamity after another. The cause, me. I've been so inside my sadness that anything good that comes into my life I push it away. The losses that I have endured follows: Jan. 21, 1981 my father passes away due to cancer. Jan. 21, 1985, my oldest brother dies due to cancer. May 21, 1998, my sister dies due to cancer. October 30, 2003, my husband of 19 days dies, due to cancer. April 21, 2004, my son-in-law dies, due to drowning. November 21, 2008, my baby sister dies, due to drugs and alcohol. November 21, 2009, My step sister dies, due to cancer. August 11, 2010, my daughter dies due to suicide. She died one week shy of her 30th birthday which was, August 21, 2010. May 12, 2011, I closed my business.

As I wine about my losses I will interact and remind myself that my mother, loss her husband, 4 children, and a grandchild!

The loss of anything human, animal or job can cause incredible discontent. With each loss came another set of unknown feelings of remorse, sadness, emptiness, and a sence of not belonging. Lately, I've been going through each loss again. I'm wanting to find the way back to earth and how can I make a difference in this life for me and for the ones that remain in my life. And for those yet to come into my life.

Today, I ask God, Spirit, the Universe to take me through the past, present, and future experiences of loss so that I can learn how to be a better woman.