User talk:Garyscaife

I am and always have been Gary Scaife for the last 32 years, my life hasent been great or completely exciting to be honest i dont believe in god or do i believe there is a maker, because far to unjust a person and now my conscience would be giving me heartache...so no i dont think there is some one looking out for us in a heavenly form.. Just that spark in your eye when a plan comes together or an inspirational song comes on thats God thats when we feel the move to do something spectaculor.. I am really not sure what i am, if i am a good person or a bad person i do a little of both i know the right from wrong but will always cross the boundary somewhere, and then have to make myself feel better by doing a little more good than i would. My life has changed sooo much and yet i feel physically i have not changed, thats strange and very misleading everyone wants to be the the central point in the univurse and that there is something not quite finished quite yet... But that is hope and hope is something i feel is a rather better feeling to believe in than god.. is that i have done something nice on this planet where i would be thought of.. Being remembered by anyone will be a cataclystic event in its self, just to know you were the person who made the person feel better for the night and possibly for the rest of his or hers life, a marker point in the brain where good times were is enough. Life is short, hopefully sweet but yet sweet would never be as good without the bitter side of enlightment everyone makes mistakes, God would know of the whore of mistakes i have made alone as one singular entity..so by myself without the bad, Good cannot be processed...and if i was really that bad why would god not of distinguished me by now and make it fair for the rest.. Not that i feel i ever do anything that is really seen as evil, just morally ungood