User talk:HolyCrocsEmperor/Archives/2023/December

What is meaningful
I thought about the question for so long, should I go travel? Isnt better to invest the money and energy into something more meaningful? Is travel really meaningful? Really mind boggling. Originally planned to take train to Johor Bahru then took train on the Jungle Railway to the Thai-Malaysia border. Then there is no more tickets for tonight's shuttle train. Now the question is bombing my head again that WHAT IS MEANINGFUL

My answer was something like
 * You should create the "meaning" of life via trying to experience more and have more stories, rather than meditating for an "answer"
 * Just try your best to do what you want to do as thats the only way of life

But is it. Everything changed including my thinking. Now i am really uncertain about it. Isnt it more meaningful to just read some books and learn some new stuff, and probably enjoy a cosy rainy night with pillow, blanket and night coffee? Like jakata said isnt it better to invest?

Also i dont want to fail others' expectations. The thinking is eventually very complex and everything mixed together becoming a big hodgepodge.

The key is, use the time to do something meaningful, and what is meaningful. Move on and try to find it. Would be draining but yas this is the way. Jiayou bro HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 07:37, 1 December 2023 (UTC)


 * I dont like haircut but bobian. Really want to have his hair one day bro, looks so nice HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 12:01, 1 December 2023 (UTC)

FINALLY END OF ALEVEL
LOL, it is the official end, but yas didnt feel much excitement or any strong sentiment. I mean, its a period in the long long journey. Probably the last time visited the school campus, the last time wearing school uniform. Lol. Four years ago I could never think of such a dramatic ending. Quite funny cos only that Osaka fella congratulated me and reminded me its actually my graduation. hahaha. I was a bit shocked when she told me that, but yas, she was the only one there with me when I muddled through this long boring but stormy exam month. LOL. Probably gonna have a good sleep now~ HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 18:19, 29 November 2023 (UTC)


 * You should be really proud, graduation is something that takes a lot of time and dedication to achieve and is a significant part of life while growing up. Even after graduation you're still always learning new experiences and knowledge through everyday life. I wish you lots of luck and fortune in the future and may you find your own happiness in life. For now after working so hard on a month full of stormy exams, you should take the time to rest and focus on your own personal interest and peace. drink coffee, celebrate and eat yummy foodsdbgbajsdb Congratulations!!! 126.220.149.53 (talk) 13:22, 1 December 2023 (UTC)

Just turned off central light, left with a lamp only, and listen to the night rain, quite a top notch enjoyment alr, no need to splurge big and go far lol. enjoy traveling, not the other way round as there are very big differences. Visiting many places is a means, not the goal

Economy of Victoria
Economy of Victoria (state) Bro mostly finished this article. I am literally fainting. More than 4 hours research is really something. But its quite strange that this article has not been created while the articles of economy of other states are there, even tho of dubiously messy quality. Still need to add in tourism, manufacturing and possibly retail contents to the "sector", but definitely not gonna do it today. But quite an interesting try of writing economics article, which is very different from fish articles.

HAHAHAHHAAHHA SO NOW THE ARTICLE OF ECONOMY OF VICTORIA IS CREATED BY ME, THE DESTINY IS REALLY INTERESTING HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 16:59, 1 December 2023 (UTC)

Deleted Russian Fishing 4
I love the game, it brought me so much fun. I have spent so much time with it in 2023. Especially in the prelim and alevels days, i dont have anyone to talk to and really, fishing becomes a lifestyle. Also the reddit community, so many good memories haha. But now I think there are many better things to do in life! And one day I will legit fish in russia!!! See you some day in the future then, who knows HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 09:27, 2 December 2023 (UTC)

⭐After two years, the cloud comes back?
It was like a stroke bro. I had always dreamed of this for two years, but i think i have alwasy knew its nonsense, and I told myself its fine i am moving on. But suddently it came and i was so shocked

I mean, I really dont know. I recalled the snowy christmas night in 2021, the weeks waiting from new year eve to my birthday alone; then the dawn cafe, then jakarta, and alishan, the corridor. So many stories and memories, and now I dont know what to do. The letter? probably, but i didnt dream of or even want a reply.

I was so shocked because it changed my life completely and led to what i am today. But now everything collapsed in one glimpse, and I dont know liao. I know life continues, I know I dont have to care about a lot of things now, but, it is there bro, the dream i had for two years, the dream that tortured me every day in these two years. The two years meant nothing but redemption or escape, I think i have approached the bright exit, and now it comes...

I dont want to be sad, I dont want to be disappointed again. And i know the result, i know what i will do, so i am sad and disappointed now.

But, thanks bah, at least after two years, I am now getting to the end, the end I was so agonisingly sure that doesnt exist. Does this mean that all waiting are useful? Wait and hope? To be honest, I dont know, but i do know that, I am moving on, even in super bad shape.

But, it is there... HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 09:30, 3 December 2023 (UTC)


 * So many to write, but not really. I have experienced everything myself so i have alr known the result. Didnt expect such an ending to my four year journey in Singapore, but yas, seems like it will be a full one without unfulfilled regret. After two years, so many stories and vicissitudes, now its the time HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 16:59, 3 December 2023 (UTC)
 * Read. Its the end of the story. I don't want to say much, just, i am moving on HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 17:05, 3 December 2023 (UTC)
 * Sent the travelogue, probably because i dont care at all, or a bit curious? nah, not really
 * 有始有终吧，就像生死道掌道仪式对应了生死道的开始一样，从这里开始，从这里结束 HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 17:55, 3 December 2023 (UTC)

About traveling
I dont know where to begin. It has been some days that I felt some kind of strong reluctance to travel. Today I have reached the door of the Woodland train checkpoint, and was alr in the queue, but the sense of repulsion(?) is so severe that I cannot ignore at all. I dont know. I checked the message, but it doesnt matter anyway. But probably after the taiwan journey, I am not really zealous about going to any other particular destination. On top of jakata's view that better to just invest into the future, my current stance on traveling is very complicated.

But its true, that we all move on, and there are many other ways of finding creating and living a meaningful life.Its a new journey, and I am looking forward to it. Would be challenging definitely because its all terra incognita, but yas, i believe in myself, and i am continuing my journey! hahahhaaha, do the things you think that worth it, thats the lifestyle HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 13:59, 4 December 2023 (UTC)

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Farewell
Four years. Not something easy to pass. I am not really close to them but, when they leave, it means my time is also running up. There were so many memories, and most of the past had been unexpected at that time. The journey can never stop, and we are all moving on. Its sad but probably after so many farewell, I have gotten used to it, at least I know how to deal with it. Just pick a quiet night, make some coffee, plug in earphones, and cry silently in the dark. Tomorrow will always be a new day. HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 03:20, 5 December 2023 (UTC)


 * yasss, i just realised my intuition, the so unusually strange feeling, was because i should stay so as to say goodbye to my old friends. sigh, thanks, god... HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 14:55, 5 December 2023 (UTC)

Dawn, the answer to all
I thought quite long, and I suddenly realised, I am only missing the dawn, the girl who studied with me silently for 8h. It is all I dream about, and the only answer hahahahhaa.

I am so happy that I have just found the answer, to probably the entire four years. It is actually just there always, but i couldnt realise, or couldnt realise because I havent experiencecd enough. But after all the vicissitudes, finally I understand all. HHAHAHAHAA, never expected the destination to be like this, but hahaha it is what it is, and i am only happy right now. So now, I am continuing our journey, even alone. But yas, continuing, but also starting the new journey! Au revoir my dawn : ) HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 15:02, 5 December 2023 (UTC)

black myth wukong release date!
OMG AUGUST 20, 2024, THIS IS INSANE. FOUR YEARS AND FINALLY HAHAHA. THIS IS NOT THE END, BUT THE START OF A NEW JOURNEY HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 04:22, 8 December 2023 (UTC)

⭐Enlightenment during running
Havent run to the bridge for so long, not to mention in the day. And suddenly i was enlightened, thank god.

That my tao is just to move on, to go as far as possible and see the largest world.

向前走，去更远的地方，去看更大的世界，这就是我的道

Always try to push yourself beyond boundaries, never stop. The only reason for stagnation is being trapped in the past and having no direction for now and future. So just find the direction, and move on, and automatically everything will go back to the positive track. And dreams will only be ignited brighter and brighter, until light the entire world HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 07:51, 10 December 2023 (UTC)


 * Just live your life, make it the best in your own way, thats the best alr. Now perfectly ok reading all the braggy instagram stories of people traveling around the world. I would definitely miss singapore a lot, but everything has an ending, so just accept it and make the best out of everyday left. Jiayou bro HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 16:39, 10 December 2023 (UTC)

2023.12.15
Now is 02:41, dont feel like sleeping nor reading books nor olaying games. 5 hours from the release of Cornell ED result, 11 hours from leaving Singapore after 4 years.

Sleepy sleepy asked me what i feel, tbh I am very calm, and dont feel much. Life just continues, and regardless, it is another day in our life. But yas, today is bound to be a milestone, with the two things occurring. I am accepting the results, and move on! We live at the present, not in the past. Yas, jiayou bro HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 18:43, 14 December 2023 (UTC)

One minute from ED result
One minute from the ED result. No expectation, but its something I have waited for four years. For the last half an hour didnt play games, nor reading, but edit wikipedia hahahahaa. yas. No matter what happened, always move on. Jiayou bro HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 00:01, 15 December 2023 (UTC)


 * Rejected HolyCrocsEmperor (talk) 00:10, 15 December 2023 (UTC)