User talk:KassidyTate

At least try to smile.

There are two things I hate the most in life. One is being bored the second is being alone. Right now I couldn’t ask for anything more. Have you ever wondered the purpose of life? Why are we here? We all just die in the end. What if you died tomorrow? If you knew it was coming you’d probably just sob. Is there anyone who actually lives life to the fullest? Is it actually possible? If I were to die tomorrow I’d just stay locked in my room and write. Write about everything that’s gone wrong. Everything I’ve done. Everyone I dislike. I’d make them think that I’m gone and they made me leave. I’ll never come back. Why would I want to? High School does the most damage to us in life. Why would anyone want to go back? I’m surprised by all the people who want to go back to high school and get a low pay. In my school they are currently doing this black out bullying thing all year long. Bullying is population control! There is nothing you can do. Sure try to step in and make a difference. You may stop it right then and there but what if your not there tomorrow? Oh well. The thing about bullying is the people taking it just keep taking it but when they lash out and give it back the get suspended for bullying. Well, he hit a kid. Well yeah he hit a kid, you didn’t do anything to prevent him from hitting the kid. The abuse gets to you. The abuse of a life that I find hard to live. Have you ever wondered what it would feel like to be shot? I have. I think I’d enjoy the pain. Pain tells you your alive. Not like I want to be. As the pain melts away and you go numb and you just think to yourself there is no more. Remember your first love? The one that lasted more than two weeks. The one you thought you would spend the rest of your life with. I’m in that relationship now and it pretty much sucks right now. You have all this hope oh It’ll last forever there is nothing else in the world to look forward to unless I’m with him. Turns out I feel like there is no future. I’m just going to sit there as life passes me. If I died tomorrow I think I’d be okay with that. Did you ever wish you could see your funeral and who would actually show up, who was crying the most, and what people said about you? I bet If I died at my age a lot of people from my school would come to the funeral. Probably just to skip. I only have two real friends that I actually talk to about stuff other then school. One of which is my first love the other is his brother. I have more friend, 3 to be exact. Technically I think they might just be people I don’t actually hate. Friends are just too much work. I got my license before my friend Kay and she lived about 2 blocks out of my way. Every morning I picked her up but there were a few when I had meetings that morning and needed to be at school before 7:30. Well Kay was slow. Probably cause she’s fat. Anyways… Some days I knew ahead of time some days I get a text 5 minutes before I’m supposed to leave. She didn’t like that. Well It’s not my problem. I also drove her home after school and there was one day I left early and forgot to tell her until the bell rang so I sent her a text saying take the bus. You know what I got in response? I will, thanks a ton. If you knew her you would have been able to hear the bitchiness in that text. She made it seem like it’s my job to drive her. Eventually I told her I was leaving school early everyday because of the classes I had. I haven’t talked to her since. Must not have been too important in her life. Gosh, women are bitches. That’s why all my really close friends are guys. I’d rather talk about who they’ve had sex with this month over tampons and eyeliner. I asked my boyfriend to day what’s there to live for? He said “then say life is better after you get narried”. He’s not one to read what he’s written. Obviously. I’ll never break a promise is what he should have reread the last time he told me that. I promise I’ll stay the night. Till at least 6am? Sure. Oh, I have my dads truck I’ll have to leave around three since he has to work at 6. 12:30am, I got to go, I love you. Yeah if you loved be you’d know I hate to be alone and you’d be the only one I’m doing. That’s right. Remember my second closest friend? Your older brother whose about 8 years older then me. I’m doing him. Probably more then I do you. When he tells you were making out and doing stuff, It’s not just our inside joke it’s really happening sometimes right in front of you. I should just end it with both of you. Sex is now boring. I never though this day would come but you ruined sex. I’m just going to throw I’ll my condoms away tomorrow. Well I doubt it but I’ll think about it very hard on a nights sleep. Goodnight.

Kassidy Tate