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Heartbreak
Fake happiness

You know after all the work I put in, I have received nothing in return. I can remember all our long chats throughout the night, we would laugh, have deep conversations and I really thought I would never feel closer to someone in my life.

I have realised and noticed that personality only plays a small role in increasing one’s affection for you. In my explorations with the concept of love and romance have all ended in a bad way. Every single time I end up liking someone and treat them so well they end up stabbing a hole right through my heart. Love is very inconsistent with regard to return of affection. Love is a beautiful thing that many people aspire to experience in their lifetime. It can bring joy, fulfillment, and a sense of inner peace, and it can also be complex and difficult to navigate. That said, fake love can be just as powerful, and even more damaging, than the real thing. Fake love is a love that is built upon a lie, one that is based on manipulation, control, and selfishness. This kind of love is full of self-serving motives that put the other person into an unbalanced, vulnerable position.When someone is in a relationship with someone who is faking their feelings, this person may not know it. They may feel the same emotions for their partner as any other person would, yet deep down the connection is lacking the sincerity, honesty, and trust that make relationships healthy and meaningful. The person on the receiving end of this is likely to suffer from a tremendous amount of emotional pain, as well as confusion, insecurity, and low self-esteem.

Another problem with fake love is that it can create an unhealthy sense of dependency on the other person. The sufferer may see their partner as their only source of love, which could lead to manipulation and control by the manipulator in order to maintain their power. This type of relationship can spiral out of control quickly, leaving the sufferer feeling helpless and trapped in an empty, lonely existence.

In the end, fake love is not a valid form of love. True love should be based upon respect, compassion, and reciprocity; fake love does not provide any of these things. If you find yourself in a situation where you feel like you’re being manipulated or controlled, it’s important to take a step back, assess the situation, and take care of yourself. Ultimately, no one deserves to be treated poorly, whether the love is real or not. She who messaged me during school, messaged me right after school and sent fit pics every day has moved on and forgotten about me in general. I really couldn’t be bothered anymore but when the time comes I would have built up enough self respect to decline or accept for her to acquire a second chance. You know feeling loved when you’re actually not is honestly saddening. Truly trusting someone with your whole heart and soul but they’re interested in someone who doesn’t deserve them is heartbreaking.

Loving and adoring someone so much that it’s difficult to move on and forget about. It’s coming to realise that you didn’t actually have a chance is what changes someone a lot, and changes their whole outlook on love and their meaning and self-image.

Earlier this year I thought I found the one, I guess our dreams don’t come true. My past relationship and girlfriend was a truly unhappy experience, but I thought this time it would be a lot better. I have been torn so far apart at this point it’s unfixable. To return to someone who has torn you to pieces is painful. For the time being I am going to ignore every obstacle and seek a way through. For the time being and until the time comes I will remain humble and self-focused. When she who tore me apart comes running back to me for comfort, I will still be there for its the lasting love that builds relationships.

It’s going to be hard to trust someone so much once more however I still feel a sense of comfort and joy amongst and within our friendship. And to whom this may concern I have retired from love for the time being. I’m hurt beyond repair. From all the days we spoke and we’re together to not being able to find a viable conversation is painful and saddening. I seem to be meeting the right people at the wrong time and I’m struggling to hold on to the special someone. Finding love can feel like an impossible task at times. With so many different people to choose from and so many unknowns, it can be intimidating and overwhelming to try and find someone who will truly meet our needs. Unfortunately, not everyone finds love right away, and many struggle with feeling lonely and disconnected even as they search for that special someone.

I’m not entirely sure why I cannot seem to find love. It could be that they are too picky or maybe they have higher standards that they cannot seem to meet. It also may be that their personalities simply make it difficult to connect with someone on a deep level. It is possible that their lives are too busy and they do not have enough time to invest in building a strong relationship.

Whatever the reason, it is painful to live without the presence of a loving partner. Loneliness and feelings of isolation can set in quickly, and life can become dull and stagnant without a companion to share experiences with. This can lead to depression and other mental health problems, making it even harder to find someone. The thought of investing energy into something that may never pan out can be discouraging and discouraging.

The truth is, it is possible to find love, despite the odds. All it takes is a little bit of effort and a lot of patience. Taking the time to get to know oneself and assess what one wants and needs in a partner is key. Once that is done, it can be helpful to reach out to potential partners and put oneself out there. It is also important to not be too hard on oneself and to recognize that sometimes things are not meant to work out, but that does not mean that true love is beyond reach. In the end, it can take time and energy, but if one remains open and hopeful, eventually love will come. I feel as if everyday I drift further and further away from love and it really bothers me, however I’m quite used to dealing with it though. Loving someone with all your heart is an incredibly powerful and rewarding experience. It’s a feeling that many of us desire, yet few of us ever truly experience. To love someone with all your heart is to fully and completely open up to them, to give your entire soul and trust them to be worthy of it.It’s a beautiful thing, when two people come together in such a way that they not only understand each other but positively influence each other and bring out the best in one another. There is nothing quite like the intense connection and admiration that comes with being so deeply in love with someone.

To love someone with all your heart is to put their needs before your own. It’s to be there for them, to be their support system, their go-to person, no matter what life throws at them. It’s to always be looking out for their best interests, not just yours. It’s to be selfless and kind, even when it’s hard. It’s to be willing to make sacrifices for them and do whatever you can to ensure their well-being and happiness. It’s to give your entire heart, not just pieces.

To love someone with all your heart is to accept them for who they are, flaws and all, and to still see the beauty in them. It’s to take the bad with the good and to never take them for granted. It’s to celebrate their successes and comfort them in their sorrows.

No matter how long the relationship lasts, loving someone with all your heart will leave an imprint on your soul. You will forever cherish the memories that you shared and the time you spent together. You will remember the love you felt and the lessons you learned. You will be stronger and more open-hearted, better able to connect to others and appreciate the love that comes your way.

Loving someone with all your heart may not always end the way you want it to, and sometimes beyond repair. In the end do not expect much of someone who puts in less effort than you yourself. I have experienced times when I’ve liked someone so much I wish I had never even met them, hence I wouldn’t be in such a vulnerable position than with what I was. You’ve sent me to a place which I will end up helping you out of again. I’m struggling at the moment and it’s getting worse, it’s going to take a while to get out of this. I realised today how I didn’t mean anything to her, I’ve seen her in the halls but has she seen me. Ignored to the point where it’s difficult to even say hi. I have the feeling she’s embarrassed to be around me at this point in time. For myself I expected return of affection but revived ill treatment. To have the decency to talk about someone you like but doesn’t deserve you in front of someone who actually cares is changing in terms of emotional strength, mental state and health and how one will see love again. I’m not entirely sure if I still have feelings at this point in time, but then again my mind is an emotional shipwreck and packed with endless thoughts like “how would life be at the moment if she just loved me back?” And “what if I did this?” I’m not quite sure what to think of this today, I just got home and received a message from her telling me to come over. The love and comfort in this relationship is quite frequently inconsistent as a whole. I’ll see how it goes though. “When you go away I still see you” I don’t think you’ll ever understand how much I loved but I’ve realised now how I just there to help you out of a place someone else will just put you back in. “He’s cooking” in front of me. It may not look like it and I don’t express how I don’t feel good about myself when you say that. I feel like this whole time I’ve been chasing a ghost. Yk love these days is full of inconsistencies and cliffhangers. Love should always be a 100:100 split, I feel like now it was 100:10 split. Love is completely unproportional sometimes. Pain is real, love isn’t. “Why would you wanna be with me, I’m nothing special.” Honestly I’m broken, I haven’t been able to attract a single person for 15 years. I’m sick of life honestly. I thought single wasn’t that bad, but now I’m really trying so hard to just to get close to one and it’s still not working. I’ve thought of giving up with love and life so many times but only see reason to live through my friends and family. I’m honestly mentally drained because of my ventures with the concept of love, I’m worn out, I can’t function properly, I’m so sick of everything and everyone. “ another day goes by” Days and months and years go by and I’ll still be struggling to find a suitable lover. Everybody I’ve put my entire heart and soul into leaves and forgets about me in the blink of an eye. I’m struggling mentally to get over what has been explained and what is happening right in front of my eyes. Watching them hug from a distance in school, I don’t even get hugs anymore, brings tears to my eyes knowing that she has swiftly moved on and forgotten all about me. I tried, really I tried; so fucking hard. All my friends have seen me put time, money and effort into everything I’ve done for her. What has he done? Absolutely fucking nothing. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.<3

If you had to take a sledgehammer and drive it through a sheet of glass, that would describe my mind at the moment. If you had to take a knife and drive it through my back, that’s what I’m feeling at the moment. It’s fascinating what love does to someone, it breaks and builds, kind of like concrete- it’s either used to build something up or break something down. I still have feelings, I definitely have feelings but I’m not sure how to start a conversation of a random topic. “It feels like you don’t care” “Why am I still here?” I’m not saying that I don’t want to live, I’m simply stating that I don’t see a valid reason to continue my pursuit of love. I can see it between us. I’ve seen their chats over phone, she’s a lot less dry with him than me. I receive 1-2 word answers mostly. It’s upsetting how it’s inconsistent though. I’m disappointed in myself for falling in love to quickly again. I still think about her every night, I drift off to memories we made prior to him coming into her life. I thought today and realised how she probably couldn’t give a flying fuck in the world for how I am doing mentally and how she has treated me compared to how I’ve treated her. I was thinking how she probably doesn’t fall asleep thinking of me every night. I’m really not doing either of us a favour pursuing what I see as a future love. I’m not wishing bad luck upon her current relationship, I always want the best for people, I just still like her a lot. If I had to pick between 100 beautiful girls in a room and her, I’d honestly pick her. Would he? Most likely not. Would she pick me though? No, not a fucking chance. Ya I guess cause how someone’s looks matter more than how they treat you. I treated you so fucking well and you’re talking about he’s treating you well. I’ve bought you stuff without even asking, you like surprises, does he know that? Probably not. I have gotten to know you so well in the past month I feel like I’ve known you for years. We’ve been getting distant lately and he’s becoming your number 1 priority. I thought we’d last a long time in our relationship and friendship, now you bump into me at school and pretend you don’t know me. Real feelings just don’t go away. You were mine but I wasn’t yours.

~Möö MattsTalk (talk) 14:18, 12 February 2023 (UTC)

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Experiencing and understanding a heartbreak MattsTalk (talk) 14:28, 12 February 2023 (UTC)