User talk:Nacina

Hi, I have been accused of having an disorder such as paranoid personality disorder.While there is a few feelngs that i do have and will n can admit to having. I got quite upset with thinking that some one would think this about me. I have many of thousands of friends n family i consider very loyal to me. That i can n have many times put my life into their hands.Yes, as most of us today have learned exeriences i have had a few downfalls with some that have proved to be very disloyal to me.I can say this i can pin point how many on my fingers. I can not pin point how many that have been loyal friends n family on my fingers,yours and every one elses.I am in my 50's and still can name those who have caused me great disstressed n pain by them their self. i have not held on to their dishonesty and have infact worked on learning to retrust n give them a second time in gaining my trust back.made peace with them n in my heart to let it go. while i find this to be a problem that i do reconize and will greatly accept is this. I have been treated disrecful by my mate that i am now married to.He has compared my body to other women's much younger than me.He has made very ugly hurtful comments to me that younger women make him feel young.He has called me grandma-old and ugly.BUT glad to say.That while he has made such hurt full remarks the truth is that I look very good for my age and have taken very good care of my self.No one has ever guessed my age and every one so far when guessing puts me 5-10 younger. So, again i feel very hurt n angry over him suggesting that i have this disorder as his answer for why n how i express my hurt when he attacks me with such an abuse of words.His favorite word he using to explain why I get angry is always the same little word.JEALOUSY. Everything I do are say back is because I am jealous. I FIND THAT OFFESIVE FOR I BELIEVE JEALOUSY IS NOT WHAT I FEEL, BUT HURT! Hurt from his comments toward me.Do i sound like this to you? Any one care to please speak with me?