User talk:Peanut011523

My Peanut! man there are so many things to say about you! you have become so much more than a friend to me. we have been thought so much together and there's so much more to come. i can't wait! you have become one of my best friends over these past months. wait you can't even be put into those terms. "YOU ARE MY BEST'EST' FRIEND" i can talk to you about anything and you will awlays understand you will always be there behind me without a doubt and i can say this with confidence because i love you very much and i know you love me too. i can come to you without a doubt knowing that no matter what you will alwawls and forever love me! you are such an amazing person on the inside and out. you have a very big heart full of love and i can just see it in your eyes more and more each day! i can remember how i felt before 'we' happened or even met. ya i guess i was hapy, but i just always had these negative thoughts all around me and there was literally no one i could trust to tell anything. i was always worried about my mom and the rest of my family, then my relatives and school, and my social life just everything you can imagine! i was always thinking...am i ever going to get married?? or even have a relationship...of course not i'm not even pretty. and as crazy as it sounds i would just pray and pray for someone to come and be my superman and just sweep my right off my feet. someone to be there for me no matter what at any time and any place. every night i would sit and look out my window waithing and thinking maybe someone will come up here and i could be rescued like cinderella. there was this song and a boy and a girl sang it and it said something like.....i stare out of my window, looking our for you, tell me what is your name....or something and i don't remember the rest but i never figured out what it was called but i guess it inspired me because i really liked it. well no one ever came so then i just gave up on boys and love. for a pretty long time too. then deja came around and you know how that went so we won't go there. but anyways as cheezy as it may sound its like you answered my prayers. there was this saying...ir you 'wanted' someont or were 'expecting' someone you'll never get them but if you just wait for the right one they'll come before you know it. sure enough they did. after i gave up on everything, and wasn't expecting anything you came along. babe your the absolute best to me, i can't even describe it but i'm going to try in this letter. well i remember every memory of you. from when you were just some weird girl saying hi to me with the weirder ashley love. lol then we kinda started a little more. then i remember when we just happened to be in the sapnish hallway bathroom together. i was just like...well scared actually. i wanted to talk to you and i thought you were pretty cool. so i remember asking you for your s/n but you said you only had yahoo. so i was like o ok. so you gave me your yahoo thing and your number. a 2 in 1 deal if you ask me. lol. so that night i went online and downloaded yahoo messanger just for you! well i remember getting on and you wern't on so i got all sad and called you for the first time. lol well i remember us talking for a bit and it was cool because i never used to talk on the phone like that it was only if i really needed something, but with you we just talked and talked for hours and hours on end! i was just so happy. just after a few days i was trusting you more than i trusted my best friend, more than my mom. i was telling you everything every little detail. you had answered my prayers babe! then you told me all about yourself so i'm assuming you trusted me too. you told me everything. i even remember you wrote in my year book "i trust you with my life" i was just like wow she's amazing! well soon enough you confessed up to me and told me how you felt about me. i knew how you did feel i just wanted to hear it from you. lol but i'm glad you finally did because look where it got us! i knew i loved you from the minute i first drove into your drive way. then i saw you and was just amazed. i was like wow she's the one! and its true. i gave you everything i had...leterally. lol and i was just so glad it was you and not nasty deja. lol YUCK! i can remember 7-18-07 like it was yesterday. i'm glad its not buty you get the point. i know you knew that night i was the one too. you were saying it feels so right and how you couldn't live without me. man babe your truly amazing. you can make me have the biggest smile on my face and it will never go away. you can make me laugh at the drop of a hat! baby you keep this relationship together and running so perfectly. yea we tend to butt heads but maybe thats because were both used to being the dominant one or were both used to getting our ways or just that we know eachother too well. i really don't know, but whatever thec case i will always love you and you'll always have a very very spacical place in my heart that will never go away. your engraved on my heart and nothing and no one can ever change that ok! i love you so much workd can't even explain how much i love you. i just can't wait until we can live together in peace and we get everything we ever want....EACHOTHER! its coming soon, just not soon enough! baby you are so amazing and thoughtful, nice, sweet, kind hearted, loving, just everything i can never let go of. well i hope i did an ok job of teling you that you mean the workd to me and i will never let you go. well i hope this is a valentines day you won't forget!! and i hope its not our last!! i love you with all my heart body soul spirit ghost...everything! i just love you so much! love your stinky babe!

ps sorry for the length. lol