User talk:Pinstripes90

Gone forever - December 17, 2009

My heart is gone forever. He took it and never gave it back. This was a selfish thing to do. Even when we were apart, he always had my heart. He thinks I gave it to someone else. But I only needed someone else to forget. Forget the good. Forget the bad. To forget the pain. But I wasn’t mad. I played his game. Somehow are last try turned into our last goodbye. It wasn’t right. He didn’t even think twice. He chose her over me. And now I’m sitting her lonely. I gave him my love. I gave him my virginity. Doesn’t he realize love does not come in three’s. I guess I meant nothing to him. I knew it would soon end. On the worst day of my life. He spent it with her. Even though I was supposed to be his wife. He even took her to his home. Now I’m looking at myself in the mirror. God damn I need a comb. I look a mess because he messed with me. But at least I’m happy he’s finally free. Now my heart is gone forever. I will never get it back. I gave up everything. Now I just look mad whack. I shut the bathroom door. Than dropped to the floor. Unable to breath. Unable to feel. I just cried, and cried, and cried. Asking my God why. Hours past as I lay on the floor. I didn’t want to live anymore. Just hoping I could get up and walk out the door. We could never be again. At least nothing more than friends. Love is fake. Love is cruel. All the tears could probably form a pool. Love is for losers in school. Now I’m worried. Because I feel nothing. Emotionless people cannot love. I am emotionless. And will never be able to love again. He never knew. How much he meant. We fell in love at school. I will never forget. I was his. And he was mine. Now I’m just passing the time. Waiting to die. I cannot love without my heart. I cannot love without him. I cannot live without my heart. He’s gone and so is my heart. I loved him so much. Even when he would fart. Now I don’t believe in love. I will never have a wedding. With a bunch of white doves. I look to the sky. I’m all out of cries. Lonely and scared because no one is there. All I ever wanted was to be in love. Many could fall in love with me. But my heart belongs to one. My one and only.