User talk:Rehman.irfan

How far, how much can a person take somebody for granted, some body so lightly? And the whole problem is that u take those so who are the closest to u.

And on top of every thing, the irony is u don’t realize, u don’t understand you are doing so.

Nothing to do with you me, and another guy, just plane and simple facts of life. Just the simple things in life but which do matter.

Take this.

Shireen, the last time we talked about money was on 27th, Friday, when u said, i will be going to the atm and shall call u to take the details then. This was after all the talks etc., we had regarding the watch, or whatever else you would better like to spend the money on.

I DID NOT get a call, I kept waiting!

I NEEDED the money THEN. I managed!

I would not have asked you again for the same. but due to some undue, inexplicable reasons, I needed some green again. I actually would have asked you on phone itself, but most of those calls were so full of tension, or rebukes from you on my uncanny behavior(TAKE this, MY uncanny Behavior), that u did cut the call without giving me any chance to say ANYTHING.

So i managed to message u expecting i would get it done the same day atleast, even if i don’t get the REPLI TO THE MESSAGE BACK.

I did not get it done, instead i got a repli ( finally i get one- -:) ) almost at midnight, asking me why did i write something like that..... May be now u understand why.... :(

Or May be i am plainly wrong, u were gathering ur wits and thoughts to write 2 lines back... :)

whatever said and done, atleast u said it again you would without fail put in the check tomorrow for sure,

but oooo..shit.....

Adding to my miserable state, the tomorrow has already become yesterday!!!!! ...:(

Take another one.

A very simple .. errr... really very very simple thing in today’s technology filled life. MMS.. uh.. no scandal, but.

I remember talking to u twice, nope communicating once and talking the second time.

I said all i had to say, probably something similar what i m stating right now, after u asking me "OK tell me what do i have to do".

Had u read the message properly or cared to ask me about it if u were in doubt... What u had to do was simply written in the message itself. Check it Shireen if u have the message still with u. message "MMS ACTV" to 222.... :(

U simply scolded me for destroying ur mood for trying to tell u this..... I was being unreasonable.... huh

And the last of them all.... for anything and everything i have tried to ask u to do, check upon, take care of, concentrate on, work on... and what not and what all....

i have somehow been trying to take that dialogue of urs "i will do it whenever i feel like or wish to do that"....

OK shireen, OK.... but just try to understand this, that everything can not be done that way.

Try asking an accident victim already on a life support struggling for some oxygen in his oxygen mask, and the person with his feet on the tube supplying oxygen saying "I will move when i feel like"...

Our relation, “US”, is that accident victim right now Shireen... Do u understand?

-IRFAN

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-next mail-

And yes forgot to mention this….. J

Shireen u have time to go to a movie, spending the whole evening;

Going out to a pub and getting drunk, letting go off the whole evening;

Hanging out with friends for as long that u loose track of time;

Getting home and spending the whole evening just sitting, drinking and smoking;

Spending the whole night, until 6, as u said “drinking”, and spending the whole next day sleeping;

Going to some shopping mall, not even to buy but just to check “things”;

The list is endless……. Or the list is the things u PREFER to do in life right now…….. L

Is this really what u prefer?? You want to do in life??

But shireen just think this … ask this question urself, if u can!! How much time does it … or would it actually take for petty things like just dropping a check, Just checking up a message, reading it properly and sending a repli. Just going in to a café and check up all ur unchecked/or lost mails and the profiles. Just spending half an hour at the gym, so that u can keep urself and ur future healthy, so that u get rid of all ur regular headaches and unhealthy states u face everyday. Just finding a good doctor, taking up a small appointment and getting urself checked for ur no menses since 5 months…….Or what ever or what not……. ALL THE PETTY THINGS IN LIFE…… L

Ask it ur self… if u ever can give importance to such petty things in life………?

And yes ask it urself… do u really think this is policing You?

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-next mail-

And you know what…

It probably takes NOTHING to feel sorry … and say it…

Rather than sitting over it, do nothing about it, no replies, and no other ways to communicate too… and finally forget about it….!!

Unless u don’t at all feel that way…. L

If the latter is true….. – Adios – Shireen –… J keep the faith.

Meet u and have all these talks with u in some other life!

-IRFAN