User talk:Wynk2007

Pondering... I find myself sitting here pondering life... We lost grandad this morning, its the first time i have lost anyone close to me. I have never understood death and i dont think i ever will. I dont understand how someone can be here and then they're just gone... how do you cope? how do you just move on? I wish i was there with my family,to be there for them and so they could be there for me but i cant,thats the down side of living so far away i guess. I sit here watching my four beautiful daughters, i feel so lucky to have them but also scared... scared of what this world has in store for us, scared of ever saying good-bye, scared of hurting when they hurt...just scared!!!